“gestures broadly”
Not doing great, ya know?
I do not appreciate my brain being scanned and put on blast like this
Turns out you weren’t vigilant enough to prevent this attack. It’s okay, I’m sure you’ll be better prepared next time.
How are you doing?
There’s a reason people nicknamed me Cassandra. I have the uncanny ability to both accurately predict a bad outcome while simultaneously never finding a soul who gives a flying fuck until the bad thing actually happens.
Oh well.
I think that’s the real most painful part.
Warning people what’s going to happen, sometimes years ahead of time, just to be ignored.
The best options I have found are
A) give the warning not as a warning, but as a benefit (EU stock market is going to go up, should have invest there VS dollar is going to drop a lot in value).
B) Band together to help out other Cassandras. If we can’t help people who ignore, we can at least try to help others who know.
C) Just stop caring.
I’m somewhat validated to hear of somebody else having this nickname.
I think most people just truly don’t want to think that something bad is going to happen. So even the ones close to me that know my track record and have used the nickname still seem like they’re making a conscious choice to not deal with that information, even if that means being blindsided later while I sigh hard enough to eject my soul from my body.
Often, there isn’t really a whole lot anyone can do though. It’s pretty obvious to me there’s going to be more war in Europe in the next five years, but unless you have fuck you money, what can you do? Go live in a hut in Patagonia somewhere maybe…
Yeah but it didn’t work, died anyway. (yes really)
Oh hi, that’s me
We are anxiety twinsies then
Perhaps we should form a network and create a new Sybiline sort of thing.
don’t forget the self abuse to try and stem it all
Bruh, Raekwon looks different than I remember.
Meds helped me with this a lot. Not the first or even the second medication I tried, maybe the third or fourth? Really good therapy, too. That took maybe another four tries with different therapists for me.
The worst part is being incredibly overwhelmed with anxiety makes it really, really hard to deal with shitty experiences with any of the above. It’s demoralizing when it doesn’t work out and it’s not perfect when it does work out. Still miles better than I was before.
The pharma-go-round is torture, even with a good doctor. With a doctor that doesn’t listen, it’s unbearable. Which means finding a new doctor and starting again. It’s a vicious cycle. Glad you landed on something that works.
Me: “Hey doc I’m depressed and often think of killing myself”
Doc: “Here have some anti depressants”
Me: “this is working much faster then the label suggests, and I don’t think of killing myself multiple times a day, thanks doc!”
Doc: “hmm that’s not right, you should go see a psychiatrist and I’m not prescribing these to you anymore”
Me: “that was strange but doc said to find someone”
Me: “it seems that everyone on the insurance list has a six month wait for new patients”
Me: “the anti depressants have worn off, the anxiety is back in full swing, and I think of killing myself daily… I hope the depression doesn’t kill me before I work up the nerve to schedule and appointment and wait six months before being treated”
Spoiler: I found a different primary care instead with the help of family who didn’t cast me aside like my doctor did. That new doctor put me back on the anti depressants. Life ain’t easy but at least I don’t have suicidal thoughts multiple times a day.
Gotta love a system that is setup to make the people least able to advocate for themselves forced to be the best advocate in the world. It’s like asking the blind if they can see and if they can’t just tell them to find someone else after shooting there seeing eye dog and taking away their walking stick. Then pickachu shocked then they fail.
Ok this is a stupid question, but am I not supposed to relate with the OP? Is it not just a normal part of being human. I get my most frustrated when I get something “wrong” like the OP describes because I didn’t prevent what I was trying to prevent. It’s not constantly distressing by any means…just when I get an interaction incorrect.
I have been trialing an SSRI for the past several months now. I can’t tell if it has at all affected me or I am just on a less externally stressful streak. I am inclined to believe the latter is the case, but idk.
I’m not a psychologist so I can’t tell you anything definitive, but getting very upset over something unexpected happening could be anxiety related. Everyone naturally gets frustrated when things don’t work out, but a lot of mental illnesses are just ‘normal’ things dialed up to 10.
It could also be a lot of stuff other than anxiety! Mental health is super complicated, regardless of what it is (if anything).
Are you in therapy with someone you trust in addition to meds? Because meds helped me a lot, but the therapy was super necessary for me as well.
I feel like my paranoia is manifesting additional real problems at this point. “At least the orange asshole is not doing … yet” and then he does.
I have avoided many bad outcomes by anticipating they could happen. Suffering with anxiety is a very real side effect though
That’s the insidious thing about it - there are times when it serves us well!
Exactly. 99% of the time it is “worrying for no reason” then it saves your ass and you feel validated for worrying so much.
You just described being a system administrator.
Working in infosec rewards and reinforces this exact mode of thinking… so I’m not getting better, but at least I’m getting paid.
I’m correct most of the time and that scares me.
