I know this sub isn’t very active, but I don’t have accounts anywhere else, so here goes . . .

I don’t want to get into details right now, but my wife has made me promise to divorce her if I ever drink again . . . my heart is broken for the pain I have caused her to get us to this point.

I feel so stupid that this isn’t the first time I’ve been here, either. I feel so stupid saying “this time it’s for real,” because we all know what to expect when an alcoholic says that :(

In terms of quantity, I’ve actually been drinking much less the past few years, but I think the infrequency might even be making my “mistakes” even worse when they happen :( So I don’t have the excuse of infrequency. I can truly never drink again, and I’m so afraid I’m going to mess it up. I have CPTSD with terrible emotional flashbacks, and I’m afraid I’ll lose control during one of them and ruin my marriage once and for all :(

So this is me, I’m here to join the stopdrinking community. Any encouragement, stories or advice you can give would be most welcome. Thank you.

Edit: Wow, thank you for the outpouring of support! I can’t reply to all of your comments, but know that I’ve read and treasure them!

  • @[email protected]English
    11•3 months ago

    Dude, you got this. Try not to think of it as a shame that you can’t drink anymore, but a pride you don’t need to anymore.

    You’re not giving up anything. I got the best sleep back. I wake up clear without an alarm for a decade now. It is such a good feeling, and most of all: I remember I had good feelings.

    You got this, but make sure people know and can support you. Ditch the people who keep pushing “just have one drink with us”.

    Best of luck