I’ll go firstt:

1: Regularly thinking that girls got all the cute clothes
2: Buying female clothes (skirt and some underwear) for “cross dressing”
3: Feeling physical pain when having to put off bought female clothes to go outside
4: Imagining yourself as the women in porn (that’s why I at first though I was “just gay”)
5: Being sad when thinking about trans people and realising I couldn’t transition because I’m not trans
6: Absolutely suppressing every form of thought when thinking about “the trans topic” (in a way that sometimes I reflected myself and thought that I may be trans, but I 100% suppressed those thoughts knowing damn well, that this wasn’t that much of a good strategy. This also included the thought “acts trans, looks trans, probably is trans”, that crossed my mind after taking LSD for the first time)
7: Dissociating kinda regularly. Happened usually when reading fantasy books. Didnt realise it was dissociation until like 3 weeks ago

Probably missed some stuff but those are the most significant ones. Quite a lot of stuff are signs that appears around the last year or so.

  • Amy
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    Well among other things:

    • A recurring dream where I’d become a girl and live an ordinary life; feeling devastated upon waking up back in a male body
    • An detailed knowledge of the effects of feminizing HRT (I just like random knowledge, I swear!)
    • Being fascinated by and jealous of trans women
    • Constantly daydreaming I was a girl
    • Imagining how my clothes would look if I had breasts
    • Feeling uncomfortable around men; predominantly female friends (I honestly didn’t notice this one)
    • Disassociating during sex and imagining I was the woman
    • Unable to see myself as me in the mirror
    • DPDR

    And it just got worse from there. Yeah, the closet was glass.