You forgot my favorite of sleep-hating-brain internal dialogue!
"Why would you need to sleep until your alarm goes off when I can wake you early and you can be anxious about not sleeping! Or all the stuff you feel you should now start but are too tired to do even though you know I won’t let you sleep!
Wouldn’t want to sleep through that! Why do you think I kept you up so late??"
This every night. And then I also get up early, or I don’t have enough time to build up dopamine to make my day a little easier (especially pre-meds and ultimately the end of the day when meds are done for the day).
I’m in my 40s now and still get to bed after midnight and wake up around 5. This shit has been going on for over a decade and I’m wondering when my body will actually sleep.
Body: I’m tired, let’s go to bed
Brain: Nah, I think I’ll stay up super late instead and be tired tomorrow for no reason.
I mean, if you don’t how will you end up with your body feeling tired tomorrow? It’d ruin the whole routine!
You forgot my favorite of sleep-hating-brain internal dialogue!
"Why would you need to sleep until your alarm goes off when I can wake you early and you can be anxious about not sleeping! Or all the stuff you feel you should now start but are too tired to do even though you know I won’t let you sleep!
Wouldn’t want to sleep through that! Why do you think I kept you up so late??"
This every night. And then I also get up early, or I don’t have enough time to build up dopamine to make my day a little easier (especially pre-meds and ultimately the end of the day when meds are done for the day).
I’m in my 40s now and still get to bed after midnight and wake up around 5. This shit has been going on for over a decade and I’m wondering when my body will actually sleep.
That’s what’s so great about it, you never get to sleep.
what i’ve FINALLY found to reliably help is exposure to the sky, watching the sunset and sleeping on my balcony.
There are some other actually scientifically based suggestions in this video but the above is what seems to be the crucial thing for me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyKEfejsVps
There’s also:
Brain: Okay, time to do things!
Body: Ehh… Later, let’s just lay here and have anxiety about not doing the things
"In a world of disorder I lie awake
Knowing there’s nothing I can do
In a world of disorder I lie awake
Knowing there’s something I can do"
Disorder - Chiasm
There’s different ways to interpret these, but given the topic here I’ve found another one.