Back again with these threads! For all the new folks, this is a safe space to tell us about anything cool you have going on, anything you want to vent about, and everything in between.
Remember, you are loved 
Things have been up and down for me. In a glum mood today. Been hanging out with someone new, and that’s been nice, I’m just not sure if I really want to keep it up. Home life is…fine, I guess. Still living with my ex, they’re gonna give things until the end of the year to see if their career picks up any, and if not, they’ll move home. That said, they’ve been talking about that for years, so I’ll believe it when I see it. They broke down and finally yelled at me for the first time a few nights ago, so I silently carved a pumpkin and then just stayed over with the person I’ve been seeing. As nice as the couch I live on is, it was nice to sleep in a bed for a night or two this past week.
Job front is slow moving, but I had a promising interview last Wednesday. Was supposed to hear back Thurday afternoon or Friday, but even with a followup email I sent, no reply. Fingers crossed I guess.
I deleted a few of my dating apps, still have a small amount installed. A Maoist actually hollered at me this morning and wants to take me to an arcade. Not sure I have the energy though. Other people are asking me for dates, but I’m just…not replying. I should go do that now so I don’t leave them hanging.
On a brighter note, 9 day tour coming up in 2 weeks, so that’s cool! Without giving away too much (y’all know my band anyways and have seen my face), I’ll be going around the midwest. We’ve been doing well on selling merch the past few months, so that money should be sufficient to cover the tour. Also, we’ll have a roadie for the first time!
I’ll end it here I guess. Hope all my comrades are well, and I love you! 
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Holy fuck comrade, I’m so sorry. If there’s anything we can do to help, let me know
Hoping you find peace soon.
And on a brighter note, hell yeah for Moby Dick! I’m about to start a David Graeber book over here myself.
I just bought graeber’s Dawn of Everything. Can’t wait to get started on it.
On the positive side, everything will pass, and so will this shitty situation. I know that no matter how bad shit gets, I’ll get through it.
I don’t own anything expensive, my car and apartment are the cheapest I could find. It’s not like it would be difficult to get back on my feet again, should I lose everything.
It’s just the constant waiting that is killing me.
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Enjoy the trip comrade! Congrats on the transition!
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The portuguese marxist leninist discord server I’m on just got its first maoist, if he starts bringing his friends I’m starting the countdown until the server implodes or becomes politically useless to the left
Good luck!
I spent all day daydreaming and reading in the park. Bought pre-rolls. Now I’m eating delicious toast with 16 kinds of different grains and seeds and it’s covered with hemp seed oil and salt and full of soma from the waning moon.
That sounds lovely!
Did well today. Got groceries. Got my pills. And a comrade was nice enough to gift me a grubhub gift card. And I hung out with Mr. Softie.
Glad to hear it comrade! Give Mr Softie some snuggles!
will do!
Glad I could help.
I helped my partner way more than I should have on homework they put off and couldnt do because they did not do a single thing in preparation. They are really struggling with self-esteem issues and procrastination. I tried to keep calm but I ended up calling them out over their behaviour after some time. I really hope I was not too harsh. I am tired.
Hope you two are able to work through it!
thank you
I remembered being paid to poke someone with a stick every time I saw them open up social media. They eventually finished their honours.
I wish it was social media, it was
I didn’t recognise that emoji and thought “prison isn’t an addiction, I think”
Same rules apply possibly though?
EDIT: Get the people’s stick
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Been a bit rough, found out my partner has had grade 3 hypertension for a while now (hovering between 180 and 170), they’ve gotten meds and are down to grade 2 at least. Not cholesterol or diabetes though.
Should get back to therapy. And I need to get the wrist that has been hurting for a month checked out, probably won’t heal by itself.
Hope everything starts looking up soon!
I now live above a highway and tonight’s treat is watching some guy who wrecked his fastmobile inspect what the tow truck is doing lest they add yet another scratch to his totaled fastmobile.
Kind of a mixed bag here: dating apps are going great, been on a lot of cool dates. But like trying to do basically anything else and I just disassociate or panic. Nothing feels real anymore.
Glad to hear you’re having better luck on the apps than I am! If you ever wanna talk, inbox is open
(cw) Not well. Probably going to fail the class I was taking. Sucks. I barely even tried. I hate being an adult. I do well, except when I have to actually function and be “productive”. Fuck me. Oh, and the sh urges are back. Fuck I’m pathetic. I feel like I’m drowning.
For something positive, one of my snakes has started eating again so I’ll be able to keep it. The long hunger strike really scared me, I thought I was going to have to get rid of her too.
Glad the snake is doing well!
I sort of self sabotaged my last job, admittedly. If you ever wanna chat, feel free to message. Please be kind to yourself
Thanks for the offer, I’ll try.
don’t have any friends. haven’t had IRL people to hang out with for about 17 years when I was still in high-school.
tired of being completely passed up on dating sites because I am boring and can’t make an “intersting” dating site profile because no life/hobbies. idc if it’s real relationship to a fling or FWB or whatever, I’d take anything, but I’ve never had anything at all and I’m 33 fuckin years old
there is nowhere to even go if I had the money or ability to get there. I don’t have a car and it takes me 30 minutes to walk to the nearest anything – and those anythings are just a handful of grocery stores and fastfood places, and I hate to say it, but I’m not going to make friends by trying to strike up conversations in the line to pay for groceries all day.
wasting the prime years of my life trapped in this shitty suburb-without-a-city, trapped in small basement suite where I have to live with an abusive grandparent, and unable to even get a girlfriend or do anything with my fucking life besides wonder when I will be forced to get a job at fucking McDonald’s again
don’t see much reason to not kill myself, even though I don’t feel bad enough to actually do that (yet). but I don’t see any other future happening for me. the only thing I have to potentially look forward to is the small chance that I will be able to get on disability for mental-illness like next year maybe (if at all).
Lawyer up if you want to win your case. That’s consistent and reliable advice I’ve heard over and over again from those that made it. You only have to pay them if you win.
It’s a provincial program (Canada), not an insurance thing, so lawyers can’t help me. Just need to jump through 3,000 hoops to convince a doctor to sign off on some paper work and hope that the Ministry of Human Repression will approve my claim.
I would offer to hang out with you, but I don’t think we live near each other. I wish you success with disability and I really do hope you find something to live for.
thx
I got rejected in a really awful way at the start of the week. It left me feeling this unhinged excess energy all week (early on I felt like I wanted to jump out of my skin). I managed to put all that weird energy towards productive things. But some of those productive things included ramping up my workout routine, so now I have even more energy??
I keep looking back at what I’ve done this week and thinking “That was only two days ago?” / “I did that?” / “Wow I handled that incredibly well.”
So… feel mildly bad, way too much energy, making good decisions and being responsible. IDK. It’s a weird vibe.
Damn, that sounds like an amazing rejection reaction
I think I’m doing ok
We love to see it, don’t we folks?
Kinda reeling from a couple things that happened over the past day that has me feeling a mixture of doomer thought and that sort of spite-like motivational anger. I kinda used the megas to vent a bit but I’m still feeling it and can’t immediately do anything about either event so I’ve been blowing off steam in the meantime by blasting loud music and working on my platformer. It’s working, so great strat on my part if I do say so myself!
Yo yo yo.
Working on a platformer? PLEASE LET ME TEST I FUCKING LOVE PLATFORMING GAMES! I think I actually saw some clips of it on Steam, if you’re the person I’m thinking of. Also just got a high end laptop (3080TI) that I’m JUST now getting set up and familiar with if you need a range of hardware to test on.
Hope things improve for you outside of that
Thanks! I hope your tour goes hard!
And omg that isn’t me, I’m literally on like week 2 of learning how to make games. I’m still only working on the movement HOWEVER as soon as I have something that can be tested I’ll send it your way! The vague premise I have is a vampires=bourgeoisie deal and you’re a human leading a prison break from the feeding dungeons, the goal is to get to the top of the castle. That’s all I have so far though
Oh fuck that sounds awesome! Would love to see it!
Struggling to get a full eight hours of sleep due to an inability to stop worrying about politics, both stateside and abroad. Still, I got an assload of soldering done and I managed to clean my toilet so violently I broke the wand brush by accident
Hell yeah for cleaning! Hope you get some rest tonight
