Comrades, that time again! How have things been going for you? Anything cool you wanna talk about? Things not so great? This is your space to talk about it! Remember, you are loved stalin-heart

Up and down for me. Tour was a complete dud, we’re never working with the booking agent again, and my ex let me know she’ll be moving out in the middle of December. I’m glad they’ll get to spend some time with their parents, they’ve been talking about moving back for years, but I just wish it was under better circumstances. Not sure what I’m gonna do yet. On the bright side, love life seems to be on an upswing again. The person who got us hotel rooms on tour came over to hang out last night. We had a few drinks with the corgi, and then TRIED to watch that killer sloth movie, but we both fell asleep on the couch for like 2 hours together. THey also baked me a loaf of chocolate pumpkin bread to say welcome home, which was super sweet.

Hope you’re all well!

  • ElectronNumberSeven [she/her]
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    212 years ago

    I’ve been really struggling with drinking again and have been drunk 6 of the of past 7 nights. I got it back on track towards the start of this month where I was only drinking on the weekend but I couldn’t keep that up.

    Today is a special day for me though. Back in very beginning of 2019 I dropped out of college and became a NEET for many years, and October 24th 2021 was when I started piecing my life back together. There’s been ups and downs but the past two years have been the best two years of my life. Maybe this October 24th will be just as important for me, who knows.

    • kingspooky [he/him, they/them]
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      42 years ago

      So sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling with drinking again, I know that’s a really tough thing to deal with (I fell off the wagon literally yesterday). I hope that circumstances in your life become such that the drinking no longer feels necessary.

      Also hell yeah about the past two years being the best of your life. That’s amazing, comrade. I hope the next two are even better.

    • isame [he/him]
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      72 years ago

      Sounds like you’ve got a lot going for you. As a fellow alcoholic who doesn’t always do so well, you’ve got this too. It’s one day at a time. Some days I don’t even think about it. Others I get off work and get drunk. But these days it’s more of the former than the latter.

      I wish you the best!

  • LanyrdSkynrd [comrade/them, any]
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    72 years ago

    My disability benefits are going to be taken away. I was completely blindsided by this because I thought my exam went really well. I applied for reconsideration, but my understanding is that those rarely succeed. I can appeal that and get a court hearing, but I’d need to pay a lawyer and if I lose I’d have to pay back the benefits I get while waiting for the hearing.

    Anyway, I’m trying to see it as a positive. I do want to work, so I’m just going to try and find something low stress, or at least something without a lot of interacting with people. It’s going to be hard to find something because I haven’t worked in 10 years and I didn’t have a great work history before that either because I kept losing jobs due to my bipolar.

    I wanted to try UPS because they were advertising for package handlers and it’s one of the few union workplaces in my area, but they apparently stop hiring permanent positions before the holidays. So my next plan is to try to get a CDL license, because there’s a lot of jobs around here that have the license as the only job requirement.

    Despite all that, I’m doing pretty good. I’m more hopeful that I’ve been for a while. The benefits that I get are so small that I’d bring home triple at almost any job. It’ll also feel good to not have to dodge questions about what I do for a living, or feel the judgements when I have to tell someone I’m on disability.

  • SkingradGuard [he/him, comrade/them]
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    22 years ago

    No money and have bills to pay so I’m panicking and stressed 24/7.

    I’m trying to make something work for a secondary source of income but it’s going to take time to get the ball rolling and making money off of it, so it makes me more stressed.

    I wish I had a rich uncle to mooch off of bocchi-glitch

  • FourteenEyes [he/him]
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    62 years ago

    Not great. Sad, lonely, behind on schoolwork. Called out sick yesterday because my sinus pressure made me too dizzy to be comfortable driving, and still procrastinated on a paper I had to do until the very last moment. Today I’m forcing myself to do some laundry and pick up the trash in my room so I don’t completely fall apart, and memorizing my lines for the scene I’m doing in acting class. I wanted to play some BG3 but it just keeps crashing so I gave up.

    I need to do something healthier with my day than sit around feeling shitty about my life, but I’m still adjusting to my new antidepressant, and apparently I’m going to cycle through all of my little depression modes one by one until they’re evened out I guess. A few days ago it was undirected rage flowing through my nerves, today it’s near-total apathy. But the silver lining here is that it’s giving me some perspective on how I judge myself: way too harshly. It’s weird that it takes not giving a shit about anything to realize that telling myself I’m a lazy useless sack of shit is just repeating a lie. I’m doing a lot. Too much, really. It’s burning me out constantly.

  • ComradeSharkfucker
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    52 years ago

    Girlfriend and I are going through a really rough patch. She got an IUD put in and it fucked her hormones so badly she almost instantly started hating me. Took about a day before she couldn’t stand being around me and didn’t know why. We took the IUD out about a week and a half ago and while things have gotten a bit better, she doesn’t have any sexual attraction to me and physical touch (the main way I show affection) is very uncomfortable to her. I tried other routes of showing affection like acts of service but it just made her feel guilty. Idk what to do :( and it’s been really hard. We’ve been dating almost 4 years and I don’t want to lose her over this. I’ll admit things weren’t amazing before the IUD either but it made things very bad very fast and we haven’t really recovered. We are looking into couples therapy and I hope it helps, I really do.

  • Not great tbh. After changing my meds last week and feeling pretty great, I had something happen to me on Sunday that left me feeling absolutely awful. I spent all of Monday in bed and now I just feel exhausted. Thinking of checking myself into a clinic to give myself time to reset.

  • RION [she/her]
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    82 years ago

    It feels very joever. Still no luck on the job search ~4 months in, and this freelance thing isn’t looking as promising as it used to. I just really need to catch a break on this.

    Meanwhile, my mom keeps telling me that I can’t always take the “path of least resistance” and that I need to reach my full potential and all that. I keep trying to tell her that my first priority is being able to support myself independently and she says that’s fine, but appends this note about how sooner or later I’ll have to figure out how I want to live my life and grow and change. My mother in Christ I don’t have a job right now!!!

    I’m just going through the motions of life and it feels hopeless. Idk what I’m gonna do if I can’t find work by the time unemployment runs out. Could probably get a retail/food service job but that would crush my will to live even more 🤡

  • Frogmanfromlake [none/use name]
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    72 years ago

    Came down with an obnoxious cold that’s just scuttled my brain for the most part. I should be fine in another week. Been having to live in a dugout for a while because the heat has become so unbearable.

  • YearOfTheCommieDesktop [they/them]
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    42 years ago

    wellll

    I’m tryin to stay upbeat, but I’ve gone from out of town for work, to hurting my back right before a weekend camping trip, to getting a cold from said trip, and now that my back feels mostly okay again finally I’m getting shooting pains in my legs lol

    I also can’t get my looming transness out of my head but haven’t been super successful doing anything about it. I went to a thrift store to look for more affirming clothes tonight and couldnt do it (couldn’t even go down the aisles) It was so busy and I was too mortified to even look. I bought some books and one possibly mis-labeled shirt though

  • QuillcrestFalconer [he/him]
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    132 years ago

    Watching people calling for / excusing genocide in the last two weeks has made my already dog shit mental health even worse.

    I feel like I’m going insane

  • CrushKillDestroySwag [none/use name]
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    52 years ago

    My dog’s getting her bandages changed. It’s all routine now just gotta keep giving her antibiotics until we run out, by the end of the week she’ll graduate from a full splint to just a padded sock until her wound fully heals.

    Bonus picture of Mia being cute

  • SuperZutsuki [they/them]
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    52 years ago

    I’m getting somewhat obsessed with surfing/the ocean in general and it’s great for my fitness and mental health but it’s also kind of taking over my life. Luckily, I’m 45 minutes from the nearest place I can get waves and even then only when there’s 40+ mph winds blowing in the right direction. Otherwise, I might never return to land.

    Other than that, playing Yakuza 2, which is dope as hell.