I don’t know anymore.
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Hopefully you’ll find a friend you can share your pets and your life with.
Fear. I know it gets worse if I stop.
Ritalin.
Oxygen, water and food.
Spite.
Not even kidding.
i saw a picture with a bird and “i live to spite god”. this has been my prime motivator.
Was it a seagull? It was a seagull, wasn’t it?
it’s an Aldabra rail. an extinct bird which evolved itself back into existence.
Same, Can’t let life and others win just like that
I just keep waking up and it keeps working
I’m not sure. Living feels uncomfortable but the thought of dying and all the suffering it would cause is even more uncomfortable. I’m not sure I want to be here but if I wasn’t, my family would be far, far worse off and that makes me feel bad.
Coffee. Hot, black, fresh ground and brewed coffee.
obligation
Debt to family members. If I pay them off, I’ll have a reason to keep living. If i decide to run or kill myself, then I’ll just be “a coward” and “selfish”.
But I’ve had bad luck my whole life. I hope I’ll be able to pay them off one day, but the idea of suicide has been crossing my mind daily. I’ve been unemployed since covid except for 1 job which lasted a month, and another job this December which may only last a month.
I am out of money. I just graduated university with a Bachelors Degree, and unlike most of my colleagues, I’ve been unable to get a job in the industry.
My school loans are coming to collect in January. My whole family is poor. I’m the realistic example of a poor person graduating with a degree. I’m stuck poor, and I will probably die poor.
Lack of motivation to end it. I last tried in July/Aug and ended up in hospital for 5 days.
I just need a nudge towards trying again.
Lately I’ve been focusing on what I can do to make other people happy. Most people will be selfish and they’ll never return anything at all. Some people will be weirded out, and they won’t want to know you at all. But eventually, you’ll find another weirdo like yourself. It’ll be fun to ask them how their day was, and then they’ll have fun asking you how your day was. And then you might realize that what is happening now is better than nothing happening at all, ever again.
A lot of bummer answers here and they are many feelings I have had, but now I am old, and I look at it like this. I once didn’t exist. One day, I will again not exist and I’ll never exist again. In the meantime, I get a very brief glimpse to open my eyes and see the universe. In it is a lot of things. Among them love, mac and cheese, peanut butter, sex, and dancing. A hearty laugh and a warm hug is worth all the pain it comes with.
Well, this thread is fucking depressing
The hope that I can set people free from the cynicism at the world, and help them be sincere again, like the way we used to be.
There is no set ending for your story, try your best to make the world better when you can.
Keep up the good work.
