it’s a bit of a busy week but i am currently reading I Want to Believe: Posadism, UFOs and Apocalypse Communism
Not too bad.
I do have to be physically in the office two consecutive days this week, where usually I only have to be in for one day total, so thinking about that makes me feel pretty tired.
BUT, I like my job, so it could be worse.
Very tired still due to my overexertion, but I feel like I’m finally back in the headspace where I can hopefully pay more attention to the spoons I’ve got.
Already feel better than I did earlier, so horizon looks good right now.
Chugging through the week, but work is looking pretty chill so far and the phones aren’t too loud, so I’m grateful. My garden is looking good so far, really pleased with my kale. I keep grabbing my wife and going “look, it’s taking off!” at least every day, lol. Some of my other seed trays are doing their own thing too, and it’s giving me something to look forward to this summer. It’s usually so fucking hot here, but that should make for spicier peppers >:D
Went to the farmer’s market on Saturday, which was great. We usually try to sleep in, but waking up early let us take back our weekend a little bit and we came home with some locally grown teas and other goodies.
Dreamed about mom the other night. It didn’t ruin my day the way the first dream did though. It actually became lucid because I knew it couldn’t possibly be real, so it was kind of neat. I woke up and wrote a poem about it.
when I knew
that it was a dream
I stepped out into the night
and flew away
Just came back from my parents to cuddle our family dog one last time before she’ll be euthanised this Friday. It was rough. I love her so much and she’s been there for such an essential part of my life (12-27). I’m going to miss her so much. I’m happy she got to have a long and happy life, but I’m also glad she won’t have to live in pain anymore - her back joints are completely worn out. Combined with the reduced vision and hearing and incontinence, I’m sure it’s her time to go. It’s just hard :(
I remember having to unsub from r/dogpictures back when I was on reddit because 80% was just pics of ‘this is my dog who just died’ - it’s just too much. So I won’t do the same to you by posting pics here, but anyone who wants a cute doggo pic is welcome to dm me 🐕
I’m so sorry ❤️
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My roommates keep leaving all the dishes in the sink. Like why can’t you keep them in your bed like a normal person.
Thursday was a busy, exhausting day, that ended in misery for me. I still feel pretty miserable. I at least think more than usual. I’m trying to use the weekend to recover somewhat. Maybe like most weekends. What a life. Maybe I’m very pessimistic right now.
Before Thursday I at least had a routine where the misery was not so active and pronounced but only subliminal.
I love seeing your weekly readings. Always found interesting topics through your posts!
I’m currently embarking on Matthew B. Crawford’s “The World Beyond Your Head: On Becoming an Individual in an Age of Distraction”…super interesting ideas here.
Upgraded my network to Wi-Fi 7, upgraded my NAS to 2.5gbe, reconfigured my torrent setup. This was all to distract me from the new girl who called and tried to break up with me on Sunday 😔 poly woes. I think I’ve figured out what I want to tell her next weekend but this really sucks because she said she wanted something serious and seemed interested but then I was maybe too enthusiastic? I dunno I’m really confused on this one
Do you have a lot of devices that are using WiFi 7? I think I only have two devices, my iPhone and MBP, that use WiFi 6. Everything else is a mix of 5 or 4, and even a couple IoT devices that are still using 802.11G!
Nope! Only my phone is on 7. But my old router was only 1gbe in the back and I just upgraded to 2gbps so I took it as an excuse to upgrade hardware. I honestly don’t see much a difference between 6ghz and 5ghz bands right now, but my understanding is that for my router not everything is enabled yet (some of it is regulatory I think) so maybe I’ll see better speeds as they work on the firmware. WiFi 7 seems to only support wpa3 and the wpa2/3 mode caused some issues with some of the smart devices I have so it took a bit to get everything set up and happy.
The new router is running Asus’s version of wrt so I’m hoping that it’ll get merlin or ddwrt support soon so I can get more granular with some long desired network changes (like forcibly routing all IoT and smart devices thru pihole). I thought about putting my NUC between the WAN and my router some time ago to do that but ultimately decided against having another device and service that I’d need to troubleshoot if anything went wrong.
Started my first week of work since I got addicted to heroin and fell into a crisis a few years ago, finally back on track in a major and definitive way, and work is going very well, just wrapped up my second day!
I’m so happy for you! You got this and you’ll do well!
Heck yeah, that is so wonderful to hear!!
Hell yeah, good job!
Had a busy weekend, my brother was in town with his family so spent the last 48 hours with them. Love them, but they are pretty exhausting lol. This week at work is looking to be pretty chill, so all in all, not bad. Hope everyone has a fantastic week ahead!
Mine has been going alright. I learned that I need to work on my conversational skills. I just don’t know how because when discussing topics in my head it flows easily, but when trying to say my thoughts out loud, I just blank out.
I know I wasn’t all like this when I was younger, but now I need to pause after each word to come up with this sentence.
So, I’ll try being more active in commenting instead of lurking to help my words flow.
It’s been an emotional rollercoaster… My friend group has been together and all talking again for the first time in a long time. It was soft and cozy at first, but now I remember how goddamn dysfunctional this group is.
A woman irl invited me to her D&D group, and I was elated because I really need a more grounded, offline social life. But they can’t work with my schedule.
I’ve tried to meet other people, but my neighbor is too needy and only talks about himself, and my coworker almost immediately joked about me being a pedophile because I talked about watching my niece and nephew.
I really want offline friends. Maybe I’m the problem?
That title takes me back to The X-Files, I never watched past the fourth episode but man, that episode is so good. It’s the one when we first understand where “I want to believe” comes from for Moulder.
My week is still going, Wednesday today. Mon and Tues sucked cuz I live in an underdeveloped country and the town transformer died so no electricity for two days. It’s back now and I have started Rise of the Tomb Raider on my potato PC while listening to A Short History of Nearly Everything!
Uni started this week as well, mediocre so far.
We had a similar thing happen at my boarding school a ways back. 3+ days without power and not allowed to leave campus. Not fun!
That must have been infuriating, how did you guys pass the time?
Well, campus was quite a ways from my parents, but my uncle dropped by with a battery bank that let me keep using my phone for a bit. I mostly switched between watching shows over data and walking around campus with friends. It sucked at the time, but in hindsight it was nice actually getting off my ass and hanging out with people outside.
That’s nice. A lot of people use uni for that purpose as well and you get a library so you can read in peace
Busy weekend, a Michelin star chef friend of ours dropped off a great little pig to add to our amazing decor, another couple from Ireland dropped off some rhubarb so Im making a conserve for sunday to go with the Southern biscuits. We finish up tomorrow with Taco Tuesday & a couple days off. Have a pork belly & skin in dry cure with toasted spices & brown sugar, got the piglet coming on Wednesday & start prepping for the Frogmore Stew & Pig Pick’n Sunday… gonna be damn good
I finished my new^2 NAS last week (for the most part). Everything has been gracefully moved over, and now I just need to tear the entire thing apart again so I can dremel out a PCI slot so it’ll fit a graphics card. I’m great at planning ahead. :D
