Happy Early May Day!
every time i try and pick out a femme outfit in my head i end up looking like a librarian in much the same way that evolution keeps reevolving the crab
idk what to make of the fact that in reality i was always a lesbian and now it’s really hard to be a lesbian when you look like a man
how come there are so many damn submissive trans bitches with praise kinks out there and how come i ended up as one of then too??? fuck
kinda nsfw
pissing like a fountain
salty food extra tasty
libido lowered slightly
dysphoria lowered slightly, feel less masculine
balls faintly sore
well the E is probably going to take a while longer to kick in but the spiro is clearly working
girls are on their way to becoming girlchampions, girlwinners, girlthrivers, girlthings are starting off slow but they are still girlmoving.
i am leaving the dirty puddle of self imposed detransition and finally entering the wider sea of a proper hrt thing finally (tried to find that one instagram meme of the fish swimming in the dirty puddle then escaping to the wider sea but couldn’t so instead imagine this as the example of boymoding me for this metaphor:)
account of weird hrt journey and false starts to getting here (also very brief mention of past drinking problems)
ive known i wanted to do hrt for 2 years, weirdly i knew i wanted hrt and to change my name before i even realised i was trans (literal dumbest girl alive moment (
‼️‼️HOLY FUCKING SHIT‼️‼️‼️‼️ IS THAT A MOTHERFUCKING 100 GECS LAURA LES REFERENCE!!!11!1!1!1!1!1!1! 
)). and basically i started diy estrogel like 8 months ago bcs a friend put me in contact with a friend of a friend of theirs who was in an anarchist british mutual aid group and they sent me three squeeze dispensers of it but i had some trouble getting AA so started for a bit just using a low amount of the estrogel, then i decided id rather do mono bcs AA has fucked up reactions with excessive drinking and basically the whole male line of my family has drinking problems and i’m a former drinker, but then i got cryptoscammed trying to buy it so but then a wonderful friend offered to help cover it for me so i could still get it but the place i was getting it was out of stock by then, so i had to wait like two weeks to order it again, and then i just put off actually buying needles and stuff for months bcs i was scared to make such a big leap kind of, but now im making it and the needles and all the other stuff is arriving in the mail by friday so yay 
What if I’m still a girlloser
Grats for escaping the boymode tidepool though, I giggled 
Well I’m still boymode but like I’m starting hrt on Friday so yayyay
Reading Unjust Depths to feed my desire for transbians kissing but getting a face full of theory instead.
lmao, where exactly is this? there’s a couple points where i was really feeling this
Interlude II :) I just posted about it as well!
oh hell yeah, i love that interlude!
It’s breddy gud
im gay
I just want to make a comment so we can make this one bigger than the last one
also a funny thing is I had a consult for an orchi last week and on the list of “alternative low impact treatments” its like
- tucking (okay sure)
- anti-androgens (okay sure)
- vaginoplasty (uhhhhh)
still not 100% sure if I want to chop the boys off, but wanted to get the referral process started just in case. my main anxieties are losing function of my doodad, and also signing up for a lifetime of hormonal medication
From my experience with post orchi penises, they still work. Different but it’s hard to distinguish between orchi and hrt (all of em were trans femmes lol).
that makes sense, my assumption is that if T levels were really crushed while having the fellas downstairs, it won’t make a difference if they’re gone
how much Estrogen am I supposed to be on? I got a prescription for .4mg/week but something about that feels… unusually low
I TOOK 1 SPIRO TABLET 34 SECONDS AGO AND I STILL DON’T LOOK LIKE AN ANIME GIRL WHAT THE FUCK
IT’S SO COOL THAT YOU HAVE INGESTED THE ANTIANDROGEN TABLET THOUGH HAPPY FOR YOU, HOPING FOR PROGRESS IN YOUR ANIME TRANSITION SOON
fuckin pharmacy didn’t have the syringes for the E so it’s just this until i can get the real good shit. hopefully this afternoon but maybe it might not be until tomorrow morningOh damn already on injections? I had to wait a year. Your best bet is to ultimately purchase your own needles and syringes. It’s what I do. I have like 2 years of each and it cost me like $50
I steal them from work! Shhh don’t tell the unit manager
I know there’s a needle exchange program run around here that could also hook me up if the pharmacy can’t
Cool that they start you on E right away though, I had to wait a few months of just AAs when I started.
fuck waiting. hit me with all the good shit ASAP because it’s still going to take a long ass time to get some real results anyway
Buy your sharps on Amazon it’s way cheaper in the long run
You can just buy them off Amazon? Really? I didn’t know it was that easy
You: This Spiro ain’t shit
2 years later: ooooh fuuuuck
god i am going to look fucking stunning by 2026, i fucking know it. even if i don’t look it, i’m going to feel it
damn they got me on a “not fucking around” dosage of HRT. i checked with my trans woman friend to compare dosages and mine is higher with spiro to boot
i keep taking a deep whiff of this bottle of spiro i got. this stuff smells like buttermints. it even smells femme
SNIFFA
It does have a wonderful scent. It was a nice surprise opening the bottle for the first time and being introduced to it with that scent.
To be honest, I actually hated taking it. I was on max dosage (300mg/day) and it made me pee so fucking much. It was also a massive hassle cutting up and divying 21 pills a week into my pill boxes (including halving 7 of them). I’m so glad I don’t have to take it anymore.
I was on max dosage (300mg/day)
oh wow they have me on 1/6th of that, currently. Congrats on never having to take it again though!I needed it to say the least. I have a sneaking suspicion that my baseline T levels were somewhere around like 900, but they never took them so I will never know. They took them for the first time after three months on 100mg/day spiro and it was around 660. Hence the need for the eventual 300mg to nullify it.
well. it was a messy process that required a bit of improvising and having to use a big ass drawing needle for the injection but i have been on E officially for the last 35 seconds
“No alcohol wipes? Can’t find any around the house? Fuck it, use a paper towel and some vodka”
lol if it comes up again you can just use soap and water. That’s what diabetics do to (or are supposed to). It doesn’t have to be alcohol. You’re just cleaning your skin to lower the risk of infection (which is generally pretty low if you do all the normal hygiene stuff).
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nevermind this is a bit much
a good bit much
c:
Sorry for bringing cringe in here, don’t click the link.
Seeing this fucking leddit post linked by someone and writing a giant screed about how policing the sexuality of women according to your personal preference is uncool, how “mimicing the behaviour of men” is gender essentialist bullshit, and how sex negativity and gender essentialism wrapped up in one post like that reeks of the swerf-n-terf sex-negative anti-feminism you used to see in the 1970s and shit. Hate to have to do it
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No, do not…
I just want someone to peel my face halfway off and sand the bones down, is that too much to ask???
What a mood
EDIT
I read this as a burning desire to have your face mangled, in an “I love the kind of woman that will actually just kill me” kinda way, rather than dysphoria posting. My priorities.
Reading my fucking mind eh
