Happy Early May Day!
Why did nobody tell me about Color Correction Make up until like 5 days ago?
Im finally surrounded by other trans people and its really nice to be able to just exist like that :)
Was told I’m not really a trans femme because I stopped taking hrt meds after being happy with my body. Like what the shit?
I will fight them
Who the fuck dares to say this?
being told you aren’t actually transfem is one of the most transfem things imaginable
Transmeds can fuck off, of course you’re transfemme!
i’ve had a lifetime of happiness stolen from me by people who claim to love me
I don’t know how to live with that
If you haven’t noticed, the cool part of genderfluidity is being able to get gender envy from anyone
Unfortunately it also means my facial hair is never shaved just the right amount
girls are on their way to becoming girlchampions, girlwinners, girlthrivers, girlthings are starting off slow but they are still girlmoving.
i am leaving the dirty puddle of self imposed detransition and finally entering the wider sea of a proper hrt thing finally (tried to find that one instagram meme of the fish swimming in the dirty puddle then escaping to the wider sea but couldn’t so instead imagine this as the example of boymoding me for this metaphor:)
account of weird hrt journey and false starts to getting here (also very brief mention of past drinking problems)
ive known i wanted to do hrt for 2 years, weirdly i knew i wanted hrt and to change my name before i even realised i was trans (literal dumbest girl alive moment (
‼️‼️HOLY FUCKING SHIT‼️‼️‼️‼️ IS THAT A MOTHERFUCKING 100 GECS LAURA LES REFERENCE!!!11!1!1!1!1!1!1! 
)). and basically i started diy estrogel like 8 months ago bcs a friend put me in contact with a friend of a friend of theirs who was in an anarchist british mutual aid group and they sent me three squeeze dispensers of it but i had some trouble getting AA so started for a bit just using a low amount of the estrogel, then i decided id rather do mono bcs AA has fucked up reactions with excessive drinking and basically the whole male line of my family has drinking problems and i’m a former drinker, but then i got cryptoscammed trying to buy it so but then a wonderful friend offered to help cover it for me so i could still get it but the place i was getting it was out of stock by then, so i had to wait like two weeks to order it again, and then i just put off actually buying needles and stuff for months bcs i was scared to make such a big leap kind of, but now im making it and the needles and all the other stuff is arriving in the mail by friday so yay 
What if I’m still a girlloser
Grats for escaping the boymode tidepool though, I giggled 
Well I’m still boymode but like I’m starting hrt on Friday so yayyay
I tried to do too much today. It’s 4 weeks post-op, but I felt spicy today and wanted to go to my FLGS and a bookstore. So we all jammed into the car and went. Instant regret. So much pain and I’m exhausted out of my gourd. I did, however, manage to secure a copy of Tal’dorei Reborn from my FLGS, so I’m a happy girl. Gonna translate it to PF 2e and run a campaign in Exandria with my group in a month or so.
My sleep schedule is so out of whack right now. Nowadays, I’ve somehow retained the ability to just sleep at will, which is something I haven’t had in a decade. My brain is incapable of controlling it, so I just pass out for like four hours at a time at little notice. Not that I’m complaining except I need a rigid sleep schedule for next week when the Summer Basho starts. I watch it live; I don’t even care that Japan is 15 hours ahead.
how in the fuck am i supposed to get enough sleep, work enough to pay for shit, and meet people?
You’re getting enough sleep?
define enough
im gay
I just want to make a comment so we can make this one bigger than the last one
also a funny thing is I had a consult for an orchi last week and on the list of “alternative low impact treatments” its like
- tucking (okay sure)
- anti-androgens (okay sure)
- vaginoplasty (uhhhhh)
still not 100% sure if I want to chop the boys off, but wanted to get the referral process started just in case. my main anxieties are losing function of my doodad, and also signing up for a lifetime of hormonal medication
From my experience with post orchi penises, they still work. Different but it’s hard to distinguish between orchi and hrt (all of em were trans femmes lol).
that makes sense, my assumption is that if T levels were really crushed while having the fellas downstairs, it won’t make a difference if they’re gone
News on my Unjust Depths posting(update forthcoming!):
I started going off about it in the new sapphic book server I joined because the funny leftist lady I found (different to the goodreads commie lady) is reading it too and will go off about it with me sometimes.
One of the server regulars was all “I want you to know I am completely unfamiliar with Unjust Depths before you brought it up, and I am intensely amused and appreciate you going out of your way to do a big ol’ infodump and gushing (and hyperfocusing?) on it here” which, I’m glad for the enthusiasm and all, cool that they seem interested, but I can’t help reading the slightest bit of condescension into that “intensely amused”, like yes captain I speak in ridiculous paragraphs, do not bully me… It is going well in there though, I’d say.
I’m fighting the Transfeminine urge to quit my job and become a racing sim streamer.
well. it was a messy process that required a bit of improvising and having to use a big ass drawing needle for the injection but i have been on E officially for the last 35 seconds
“No alcohol wipes? Can’t find any around the house? Fuck it, use a paper towel and some vodka”
lol if it comes up again you can just use soap and water. That’s what diabetics do to (or are supposed to). It doesn’t have to be alcohol. You’re just cleaning your skin to lower the risk of infection (which is generally pretty low if you do all the normal hygiene stuff).
Having to tear myself bodily away from silly turn-based-tactics games to go read Unjust Depths so that I do not become dessicated with lack of gay. Surely Homa must be the saddest and dorkiest lesbian, surely.
Sorry for bringing cringe in here, don’t click the link.
Seeing this fucking leddit post linked by someone and writing a giant screed about how policing the sexuality of women according to your personal preference is uncool, how “mimicing the behaviour of men” is gender essentialist bullshit, and how sex negativity and gender essentialism wrapped up in one post like that reeks of the swerf-n-terf sex-negative anti-feminism you used to see in the 1970s and shit. Hate to have to do it
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