I hope everyone had a great week last week. Hopefully this one turns out even better for everyone.
I’m not ready yet to come out.
Tomorrow will make my first week of full time girlmoding. Also I graduated college and just moved to a new city.
I want to say that I’m incredibly happy because I’ve sort of achieved everything I’ve been working for over the last couple of years. But honestly this is so fucking stressful. Like I’m very obviously visiblly trans still, and my voice is inconsistent, so I have no idea how people are perceiving me. I think I pass to some older people? Most people have been very nice so far, but maybe too nice sometimes? Like I’m pretty sure when a younger person gives me a random compliment out of nowhere it means I got clocked. Idk the uncertainty is very difficult.
But also its weird being away from friends and family. It’s far from the first time I’ve been isolated, or that I’ve moved to a new place, but it seems different now. Maybe because I’ve been way more social than normal over the last few months, and that’s over now for the time being. Idk my roommate is cool, but he’s the only person I really know well here. Also, it’s just hard to go from being so busy for the last few months to absolutely nothing.
Also I have have to start my new job while out as trans. Which is terrifying. Like idk I’ll feel ok probably once I’ve gotten started, and my name and stuff is all correct, and I have a general feel for how I will be treated. But the next month or two is going to be rough.
Women compliment each other all the time. Doesn’t matter if we’re cis or trans, doesn’t matter if we get clocked or not, it’s just something we do. Not only because it’s polite, not only because we’ve all been indoctrinated by the patriarchy to need affirmation and try to help each other out with that, but usually, most of the time, because we just mean it. The biggest favor you can do to yourself is to learn to take a compliment. You’re not exempt from being beautiful just because you’re trans, and you don’t have to pass for that, either. And honestly, it doesn’t fucking matter if you get clocked or not when people are nice and respectful to you. There are people out there who don’t mind if you are trans. Tons of them.
Ok honestly you’re so right about this. I’m unironically lucky to get awkward complements instead of be called slurs.
It’s so nerve wracking starting a job and being out fully for the first time. Getting a bit of day to day comfort back will make things a lot less stressful. It’s hard to start so many things at once. Hopeful for you
Like I’m pretty sure when a younger person gives me a random compliment out of nowhere it means I got clocked.
Why? Perhaps instead they just genuinely like whatever they complimented about you?
It is really stressful to start a job when fulltime like this though, hoping it goes well for you
Fwiw, I found most people in a work environment (who aren’t utter freaks anyway) won’t want to linger on stuff like your gender and will move on without issue. Even working a blue collar job I didn’t really have any troubles myself.
I’ve been stuck in a first aid refresher course all day with a bunch of decrepit twats from the local côr meibion who threw a fit about the gender options on the forms that were handed 'round.
I swear to God if I hear one more fucker say,
CW: transphobia
“There’s only two genders and if you’re somehow confused about what one you are, look in your trousers.”
, the class’ gonna get a live example of how to treat lacerations.
Death to cishets, etc, etc.
I’m not gonna lie, but I would be openly hostile towards these people and probably get thrown out. These fuckers need reeducated in the gulag. But I am heavily combative with this shit and probably why I’ll never have stable work.
There are not words for how badly I wanted to throw hands but, like, kicking the shit out of a couple of the old men who sing at funerals would get me a bit more than dirty looks around town so… What could I do really?
During the lunch break, the bloke administering the classes went on this rant about Vaughn Gething conspiring against whites, so I didn’t have much hope for help there either.
I didn’t mean physical assault, but rather berating them and being an asshole. Making sure they regret their life choices.
Anyone got a good guide on how to turn raws into vials of E?
edit: found it. it was in a stickied thread here.
could you drop a link?
dysmorphia
Gaslighting myself every time I look in a mirror. My bf thinks I’m pretty but god damn does it suck to not be able to trust your own lying eyes.
!!!
Real as fuck, but unironically other people’s eyes are more trustworthy than your own, which is kinda shitty. You’re your own worst critic…
If people say nice things about me it’s hugboxing.
Tell it to your bf
I 100% believe people are just being nice to me when they compliment me
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BMF is that you?
Trans mega gets its visit from b_m_f !!!
late night cat post
MOST CURSED KBITY
She’s fuckin WASTED on this manga, chat.
WAAAASTED
She’s even the volcel police:
Naturally asexual catgirl-san:
I just think shes funny…
I would buy this mini maybe.
Why does she only get a few chapters to shine? Why does Dungeon Messy devolve into a weird shounen action manga for the last like forty chapters? Why haven’t Marcille and Izutsumi kissed?? WHY AM I DISAPPOINTED AGAIN AAAAAA
She’s so cute it’s almost worth it.
The VOLCEL POLICE are on the scene! PLEASE KEEP YOUR VITAL ESSENCES TO YOURSELVES AT ALL TIMES.
نحن شرطة VolCel.بناءا على تعليمات الهيئة لترويج لألعاب الفيديو و النهي عن الجنس نرجوا الإبتعاد عن أي أفكار جنسية و الحفاظ على حيواناتكم المنويَّة حتى يوم الحساب. اتقوا الله، إنك لا تراه لكنه يراك.
Okay yeah, fair, Idk.
Trying out the cheapo storebrand conditioner and discovering that it turns your hair into a bunch of majestic curly tendrils. My hair behaves straightish-to-wavy since it’s weighed down, so I’m happy to find a goofy conditioner that makes it springy again
cheapo store brand shampoo and conditioner has zero business working as well as it does
Only downside is the kinda chemical-ish smell, but saves me three bucks over name brand =)
Absurd bookposting
Dear chat, if you have read Light from Uncommon Stars by Ryka Aoki, did you enjoy it? Is it good? What’s the right amount of internalised transphobia and external turmoil for a protagonist to undergo?
books
i have not read it yet but my mom bought it for me for christmas because she heard it was trans. i know literally nothing about it beyond that
i think even intense internalized transphobia could be interesting to explore but i would need someone i trusted to tell me it handled it well first. does light from uncommon stars have a lot?
uh oh
Oh shit that’s scary, damn!!! Hell of a thing., mom…
Light from Uncommon Stars has a LOT. Author Ryka Aoki wrote an interesting short story in The Collection(Topside Press, 2012) called To The New World which has about the same, I’d say it’s two steps off of /tttt/ brainworms. I would advise checking CWs before you start!
spoiler
hmmm… i’ll read it at some point then but i definitely need to be in the right headspace. if it’s even remotely close to /tttt/ brainworms it’s SO funny that my mom (who is incredibly awkward about gender with me) got it for me
Dungeon Meshi 61, spoiler free tho
Okay this bit with Kabru and the canary captain is fucking silly.
Here we have these two, who look exactly like beautiful lesbians… walking around calling eachother “he” and “him”. It’s absurd.
My honest reaction to the information that these two are apparently just cis men:
To cope, one might envision them as fem trans men, or indeed different varieties of he/him lesbians having undergone top surgery. Literally anything else but this empty-headed draw a girl, call them a boy shit, rrrrrgh why why why
NNNOOOO REEEEEEEEEEE
Conspicuous Catgirl Midriff
DOWN WITH CIS
if cis is so great then why isn’t there cis 2???
yesssss
Dungeon Meshi spam except no spoilers, it's just
Sorry if this is even less relevant than usual, I just have thoughts n feelings is all.Okay I’ve enjoyed Dungeon Meshi enough up till now, but it goes from “yeah why not” to “AWWWW YEAH BISH” when kbity is introduced.
Witness her, gaze upon her need for pets.
She’s so cute and silly, “like she’s reverted to a childlike state” NO, Marcille, she is in the most natural and correct state: nuzzling for headpats!!!
Is Izutsumi the best catgirl? This is great ngl. I could read more of this.
It’s really fun that she’s a catgirl instead of catgirl
adding to it!
Young me was missing out on the catgirl bliss
So I’ve been reading Dungeon Meshi for my mulched brain and… she wants to stop being a catgirl???
Meow nya, miss! Absolutely not relatable at all.kbity wants to stop being kbity
Incomprehensible, worst thing I’ve read all day. How could this happen? Who would do such a thing??
society tells kbity it’s not ok to be kbity, kbity thinks she must change herself to better fit society
this sounds like a halimede tweet now that i’m reading it back
Kinda tagline material… kbity self acceptance arc…
(Also why is she called “kbity” anyway)
