Hoping to hear everyone’s week went well this past week. Go out there and have a great week this week everyone!
Uhh, I just noticed that my posture when standing up is different now. My centre of balance seems to have shifted forward a bit. Also my back is more curved and my ass more pronounced 😳 And my legs just kinda close on their own, it’s actually the most comfortable way to sit now. This has to be hip rotation / pelvic tilt, right??
How long have you been on HRT? I have gotten none of that :/
I’m 9 months in. This stuff is just so unpredictable, there’s so many other changes I thought would happen before this
How long have you been on HRT? I’m hoping for this soon cause I hate “manspreading”
Little over 9 months now. Haven’t been able to find much info on this, but I saw some people claim that it can take anywhere between 9 months to 2 years for this to occur. Oh, and I recently switched to another estrogen type, so maybe that did something?
It’d a thing!
The more I think about being trans the more i like it
It’s pretty cool, I love it!
fuck yeah
I saw the tv glow today it was so fucking gooddddddddd
new unjust depths chapter
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Been trying to change how I react to and create narratives around my negative emotions and thoughts. Maybe it will be helpful for people here.
pretty mild dysphoric thoughts, I guess
When I think “I feel like a man today. This makes me sad, but it must be proof that I’m a man”
Instead, I’m trying to think, “I feel like a man today. This makes me sad. I’m a trans woman experiencing gender dysphoria”
When I think, “Your emotional state is all over the place and changes radically each day. These mood swings are proof that you are mentally ill, and this trans thing is a symptom of your illness”
Instead, I try to think, “Your emotional state is all over the place and changes radically each day. You’re processing emotions and working through things that you’ve ignored for a long time. It will get easier over time”
When I think, “You’re only doing this because you think it will fix you and make you happy, but you’ll find out later it was all a mistake”
I try to think, “I don’t need fixing, and I’m only doing this because it has already, at times, made me happier than I’ve ever been.”
Maybe you could share your own healthy patterns of thought
Day 1 of being a girl:
I understand my feelings now
I understand my feelings now
still new at this myself, but i feel you girl
I’m glad.
still new at this myself
You really seem like you’re thriving right now and have everything together
PFFFFFFT
i’ve only mastered the art of acting like i got my shit together on the internet. i’m harry dubois tier fucked up IRL. the nice part is that that can all change though
I don’t know if I’m supposed to take comfort in the idea that you’re also fucked up, but…
I mean, part of transitioning, for me, anyway, is cleaning myself up. I’m not actually that fucked up, but like, I’m really, really bad at taking care of myself, and one of the big reasons is that as an egg I just didn’t want to. I have actually gotten a lot better about showering more regularly and being nice to myself. I’m still pretty uhhh… scrungy and dirt a lot of the time but I’m getting a little better every day
Hah, keeping my body clean was always easy for me.
Being nice to myself in other ways… Now that’s where I need to clean up.
We’ll get there~
I hope everyone’s doing well
Wake up in the morning and my stubble has grown back in.
Reach past anything colorful in my closet to one of the four button downs I wear to work. This one is gray.
Brush back my pretty hair until it’s behind my ears and within the bounds of acceptable male presentation.
I put on the tie. Everyone will call me sir.
45 hours of every week.
I know what you mean. I work hybrid but still. Is such a confusing experience, although I’ve been wearing women’s jeans and hoodies to work and my hair down. Honestly people still just see me as a man though
We have a strict dress code.
Men must wear a collared shirt, tie, slacks, and dress shoes.
Women can basically wear what they want 😔
That sucks so hard. I am incredibly lucky that my job doesn’t give a fuck what I wear, so it’s strictly gender neutral clothing items. Also that sounds kinda like sex discrimination from a law POV
Men must wear a collared shirt, tie, slacks, and dress shoes.
Women can basically wear what they want
When in high school, it always annoyed me when people complained about things like length requirements of skirts for girls when boys didn’t have the option of wearing them at all (or dresses or jewelry or make-up/nail polish, etc). The girl’s dress code was just boy + a bunch of extra things they were exclusively allowed. Of course I insisted (to myself) that I wasn’t jealous or anything because why would I want any of that… it was just the principle of the matter, surely (/s).
Reflecting on the feelings of possibilities opening and limitations I set on myself fading when I started the first year of my transition. I need that energy and belief that I can move mountains again
That relentless and exhausted state took me to the finish line once, so why not twice? What’s the worst that happens, I don’t make it? That’s never been a reason not to try
I’m excited to get back into cosplay
I need to get into that shit it would be so awesome… what kind of girls (or non girls) are u planning on doing
I have so many ideas! One that I’ve wanted to do for a while was Yuri from Angel Beats
not familiar with that girl but i’ve looked her up and seems like a good choice!!!
coding
finished project 1 in the curriculum, read through the next part, now onto project 2. I set up some stuff for it earlier, so I can get right into it this weekend. I’m also very comfortable with git again
body stuff (pride month edition)
The dysphoria and contempt I have from having a vagina is unbearable, especially in a month where I should be proud of myself. I’m proud of the majority of my transition, and certainly my identity, but I also feel like a failure.
:meow-hug: you’re not a failure for making a mistake.
new episode of whisper me a love song coming out the first day of pride hits just right
Came out to another friend today. Remained cool and composed. The very picture of emotional stability
Shaving is a rabbit hole of time and treatment, but it sure does feel good once it’s done.
CW: Dysphoria
Actually felt so bad about my facial hair growing in while I was wearing eyeliner that I started wearing a mask around my family. Told them it was becuause of allergens. Not something I was expecting to feel at all.
I’m doing laser again on my face. I’m tempted to get my whole body done but, honestly, I like the ritual of shaving. Makes me feel femme~
This was me the first time I did my legs, it was some of the most gender euphoria I had ever felt.
My facial hair is so thick that I have a shadow still even the moment after I shave
Same 😭. I’ll shred my face apart trying to make that shadow less visible, it’s such a struggle with thick hair.
Yeah, the shredding is real. I had to chill out on that and just cope.
Been seriously considering going in for laser removal lately.
I’ve been skirting the issue for some time now, but I’m just gonna come out and say it
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I’m a trans girl
There, it’s done
I also have something to say
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I’m trans… and cute
this is true
New pronouns unlocked.