WE BEAT THE NEWS MEGA
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late-night nsfw navel gazing
I am having a pretty bad time doing terminology replacement for my own anatomy.
I’m pretty sure “clit” is it because honestly that’s what it’s most like nowadays, and none of the standard issue terms dudes use or whatever work for me. But I can’t really get it burned into my skull, even though I know better consciously, it’s just been too long of my brain seeing ‘lil nubby thing with a slit on the end and balls under’ and going “bepis!” I am going to end cisnormativity.
The main reason I’m having a bad time replacing the term is 'cause I just don’t think about it that much, outside of sex, because why would I? (Maybe I should, maybe I need to better internalise the chill familiarity to myself) It’s annoying because I think the only part that brings me dysphoria about it is the cisnormative connotations, grrrr. Not a big secret but actually the natal transfem clitoris, the girldick, whatever you wanna call it, it’s actually kinda neat.
Sheesh this is a lot of new sexual thoughts all at once… I guess the dam kind of broke? It’s good, just also a lot. I also need to get comfy with anyone else referring to it as well, that’d be good. Picking up the pieces after a decade of being really incredibly traumatised, no big.
Living with trans people is so cool
So apparently my entire issue with stardew valley being boring was because I was playing as a guy. Silly me, by playing as a girl I’m around 100x more invested in her cute little life.
I wonder if this has any real life implications
Will certainly be interesting to see.
(CW deliberate misgendering, censored deadnaming, anti-autism comment)
Vivian Jenna Wilson, Elon’s trans daughter speaks out and calls out his lies about her.
Can we somehow get in touch with
and have her come visit
?
(Love the little friendly rivalry between the trans / news megas lol)
fuck I think I’m more mentally ill than I thought
pining over what I don't have
I waaaaant estrogen pleaaase
I’m going to go play stardew valley and be a cute girl.
compliments reaching dangerous levels of flirtatiousness
my cat ripped one of my favourite anime tops through the screen printed part. is there any salvaging it? there aren’t many bungo stray dogs tops 😥
for reference it’s a smaller hole
the doctor lady tells me to take less estrogen but i don’t wanna… i want MORE estrogen >:(
When I looked in the mirror I noticed my hairline masculinizing, I used to look so much more ‘rounded’. That was a neat thing. Things otherwise have been going better than they usually do, makes me fear when they’ll go wrong.
I am however dreading a therapist appt next week, managed to finally get to see one (I forgot I was on a waiting list for the local community clinic, just got the call the other day), I am worried she’ll be nearly traumatically transphobic as my PT was since that’s the default out here, everyone is a bigot and that’s how it is, though if she’s that bad I’ll just drive 2hrs away, I didn’t want to, but I’ve replaced a bunch of parts on my ancient car, so it can probably take the stress. At least both places are on a sliding scale, so that’s helpful.
I thought prog was making me feel like shit. Turns out I’m just sick and feverish less go
I’m a neuroqueering neuroqueer. Are you?
DRUMROLL FOR MY BLOODWORK RESULTS:
Estrogen: Way too high, dosage cut
Testosterone: they forgot to check???
???
I have so many dark blue clothing pieces and dark blue is one of my least favorite colors to wear… why did my high school have to have a blue and white color scheme, I can’t even rework these T-shirts into stuff that’s wearable. Maybe I can dye them black, but that’s such a pain.
edit: i need to specify the exact shade of blue. it’s cobalt blue. I actually do like navy blue, it’s not one of my favorite colors but I’ve put together some cool looks with navy blue pieces, but. Cobalt blue? School spirit blue? I can’t do anything with that.
Maria Griffiths is neurodiverse & that’s not up for debate.