I can hear an owl 🖤
Bebbe magpie here. Been practising all night
I have a confused honeyeater that talks in the early hours
Got some of those also, they start a bit later
Oh to be content as a small cat in a shoebox.
Have a great night everyone ❤️
Box 🖤
Woke up early but was still all puffy and congested and emotional from last night’s shock email. Trying not to let anger take over and focusing on the good things… grateful that I’m catching up with a friend today. Parking in Carlton has really changed. Nearly everything is 2P till 7pm, all my good weekend street parking spots are gone. Fair enough, I just wish there was better PT connection - the new train stations can’t open soon enough.
Attempts to time my afternoon walk between showers were a complete and utter failure, we had to abort early. I was able to take off my wet-wool smelling jumper and am now just a bit damp, but Mr Woof had reached Soggy Doggy status and has been tied into his bathrobe.
I’ve done nothing today. This probably isn’t helping my physical health or my mood, but the inertia. 😞
I’m thinking I make risotto today. Massive batch
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Death brings out the worst in people. I’ve seen it up close too many times. People make others deaths about themselves, about how they feel, about their guilt. Because they know they could have done more, whether in the moment or overall, but chose not to. And you know, sometimes they can’t do more, sometimes their plate is already overflowing, but that doesn’t mean they get to make the death about them.
Of course it is, because no one ever really wants to be close to someone struggling with their own mind. They prefer performative care, so they can receive sympathy, but do not actually care about the person truly struggling.
The mentally unwell are chronically alone and lonely, I can attest, with few real, genuine human connections, because they are just there to make others feel good about themselves. Even their death is capitalised upon for further sympathy and attention.
I wonder why I have so few genuine, caring friends, but why wonder when the answer is they don’t actually care. They just like others telling them how kind and selfless they are. It’s disgusting that the mentally unwell are only “cared for and about” when they’re fucking dead and it doesn’t mean anything to them.
personal experience
My own family, the side I still see, doesn’t call or text me despite knowing what I go through, and have suffered through. They never called to check in when I lived through my egg doners severe neglect, just made excuses. They didn’t check in when I ended up isolated and raped daily by my ex for 8yrs. But they are quick to say “if you need anything, let us know!”. Well I said call me occasionally, just a msg to see how I’m going, and they cannot even do that, so I may as well rot away and they can all have their performative sadness and attention when I pass away. My own dad doesn’t even call, even when I initiate contact. So yeah, fuck anyone who pretends they cared, just to take their fill of the attention they obviously so desperately crave.
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So many hugs.
I know I’m just an internet friend but I am always here if you need, you can msg me anytime and if possible i can real life help to if i can.
Thank you seagoon, I offer the same to you. Those who understand, understand the importance of human connection and bonding. This community has been a bastion, and you the shining pure gem at its center. 💜
It’s you everyone comes to see. 😘😘😘
experience
spoiler
Having very obvious cptsd and the lack of control of emotions and emotional expression that is part of that was a real eye opener.
People can be so fucking cruel. The number of people who saw I couldn’t help my feelings and reactions and made me suffer with cruel words was too high. Absolute sadists.
It gave me insight into why many veterans with ptsd commit suicide, the pain is so great and sadists take advantage.
I think one day I will do charity work with vets with ptsd
We love you Spud. Massive hugs 🫂 I’m sorry you had to go through that shit.
It’s Super Star Saturday! Free coffee voucher for those who complete the optional upskill module!
The “People and Culture” team would like to remind you that the upskill modules are compulsory and are not to be completed during work hours.
Also note, those who fail to complete the modules by Monday, or do not receive a minimum of 50% pass mark will be placed on a performance management plan.
Vouchers are limited to 1 small coffee when a purchase of $10 or more is made.
Enjoy your weekend!
Mmm will i be paid overtime or time in lieu. I can be a slow tester at times
People and Culture should be reminded the Dutch Solution exists.
Goodnight everyone. Luv you all. 😘😘😘
Goodnight!
I remember going to see this performance , in melbs tho
magic flute in aussie language https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BurovR247oI
There will be no rain here but I’m wearing a rain coat to go shopping just in case.
☔
I wore sandals when I went out. Sorry. 😔
Also, i went to the italian supermarket and while there bought a block of nice milk chocolate, I had one square, nibbled it slowly and threw the rest away. It was so delicious.
Bruh, why did you throw the choccie away 😭😭😭
otherwise i would have eaten it all
it’s bad enough i just ate 4 nougat sweets
You did what now?
Wore sandals, thereby invoking the wrath of the weather gods… 😔
Oh. Ok all good. I thought you wasted a perfectly good chocolate.
Carry on🫡
Brain no worky today. No think. NONE.
Except cravings for an HSP but I had one yesterday so brain is gonna have to think less about that
You’re an adult (I’m assuming) so there’s absolutely nothing stopping you from having a second HSP, it just won’t be as good as the first :D
I’m stopping me! I can do it!
glances longingly at the front door
Nah, you’ve got this. It’s only 1 more HSP and you’ll just eat salad tomorrow. Today though is a Saturday and you deserve a treat! You’ve earned it!
HSP, HSP!
Felafel with chilli and BBQ sauce is my preferred hsp. So tasty. Sooo tasty…
Yum! You’re giving me lunch ideas
Does anyone know where there’s good turkish restaurant in the Northern suburbs?
Sydney Rd is a nightmare so avoiding that. Not after kebabs unless they serve other stuff.
Sorry. I’m not very knowledgable about that stuff.
Can you Google search for Turkish restaurants in Google maps or something? It’s sometimes how I find hidden cafes.
Also just going on a tangent, T20W match at 8pm tonight Aussies vs Sri Lanka but I think it’s on Kayo or something like that.
I’ve googled and googled and googled. The good ones don’t do dinner on Saturday’s. We’ve got one in mind but if there’s any more I’d love to hear it.
How about this one or too far south?
A little bit but it’s all good now. Thank you.
Music last night has given me this great sense of peace today. Things are going to be OK ❤️
so many hugs 🙂
you deserve this
