Car just broke down at the dump… That means I get to leave it here, right?
Gooooood morning DT. Today is the first day of the rest of my life and I’ve characteristically started it off with a good old sleep-in. I am starting to realise that having the blinds completely down is good for falling asleep, but really bad for my overall circadian rhythm because that severe lack of morning sun in winter gets the rest of the day out of whack.
Cleaning trip to aunt’s place got kyboshed at the last minute by their horrifically incompetent son (long story), but I am still going to drop by aunt’s temporary digs for the promised food 🤩
I’m going to draw up a list of some things I’ve been putting off. And plot out what I might do with the grand plan to end my lease soon, dump everything in storage and go hang out with family in WA for a month or so. Some of it will be shaped by the chat I have with work on Monday - whether I can do some remote work while I’m away, timing, etc.
On one hand, moving out is a pain and part of me wants to be lazy and doomscroll. OTOH, this is the perfect time to start afresh in many ways. A very big part of me wants CHANGE! Close that chapter properly!!!
When I was away my Airbnb had motorised blinds in the bedroom. Opening with the push of a button. Game changer for getting up quickly. Seriously want for my bedroom as I am also blinds down dark bedroom person.
I really want this too. I always have trouble falling asleep if the room isn’t completely dark
I sleep with the blinds open and a good sleeping mask on. I get the good deep sleep from being in the dark, and the natural light as soon as I wake up. It works for me.
Migraine. No trip.
Fuck this
nooooo
Oh shit noooooo, I’m so sorry
I hope you feel better soon. :(
Good morning
small lil "being-triggered" vent
So my cousin got engaged over the weekend, she found herself a top notch bloke and she’s a star herself so perfect combo.
I’m not jealous of that, I don’t care about being married or not and it isn’t important to me in any way - deep or superficial. I’m envious of how her mum is so happy and proud and keeps gushing about her - I just know that my dad just wouldn’t talk about me like that, and my mum isn’t in my life and she isn’t the type to care about my accomplishments either. I’m sad that no matter what I do, what I accomplish, or big (to me) achievements, I don’t have a parent who would talk about me like that, so proud and open about being proud.
I’m so happy for my cousin, she’s a fantastic person and has been through so much - she deserves this happiness and her mum to gush about her. I feel bad for being triggered by my aunt’s love for her daughter - I guess I still have a long way to go to reconcile not having a parent be so openly loving to and about me.
Just needed to get this out into the world, I can’t talk to my family about this, especially not now, and my partner doesn’t really get it as his parents are wonderful. I’m sorry.
Sometimes when I read or watch shows where people have happy, supportive parents, I actually can’t help but cry because how different might life be if I was encouraged instead of shut down?
So, I totally understand how you feel. And it’s one of those both things can be true situations: you can be so happy for your cousin, but you can also envy her. I’ve spent years in therapy thanks to my parents, but the truth is, it’ll always be a little wound somewhere on me that opens it. I’m just better at treating it now.
I know this sounds like tripe, but we love you! We’re proud of you! Too many of us in here understand! We gotcha back!
It’s important be able to talk about these things in the open sometimes.
I’m sort of in the same position you are, and honestly, it hurts.
It doesn’t mean I’m not happy for my friends, but I’d be lying if I didn’t feel a pang of sadness.
Sometimes the happiest days, are also the saddest.
Hang in there ❤️
YES. I find talking openly completely removes shame.
but I do worry I am bringing my loved ones, my real fam, down
so many hugs
and you’re not alone in this, I understand it perfectly
just last night I dreamt of my father using slur words at me , I basically told him he was a bad father and should have been supportive and spoken well to me
and then on waking I realised, I have never had a nice dream of my father or sister, not one . That kinda made me sad. I’ve never missed them either.
In my own life as a parent I have tried to be as open and loving and supportive as I can be and I am so lucky to have the Young Seagoons, they are really good people.
That’s the one blessing isn’t it. We’re working hard to make sure our kids don’t ever have to feel that.
it is
so many hugs to you and yours
When you have difficult or non existant parental relationships, stuff like this always highlights what you don’t have. You’re not wrong for feeling that way, and their absence in your life is not a reflection of how wonderful you are as a human being. Some parents just suck. ❤️
This seems like their failing, not yours.
The doughnut fries helped a little…
I got this from one of the guys I manage. Thought it was really sweet:
Aww we should all be like Simon and Matt.
My last manager would’ve ended it with ‘and that’s why I’m giving you more work’. lol :(
Thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate the kind words and support! And I am saddened to learn that there are more people here whose parents were/are very lacking, I’m sending you all my good vibes and love 💜
Here is Mickey as thank you as to bring food* luck to you all
*Meant to say “good luck”, but I’ll leave it as is and channel the luck into your cooking and baking
My fluff is melting… is there a correlation between shitty parents and cat ownership?
I think cats are special in their self-domestication. When they choose to lay on us or keep us close company, they know we need their love the most and it’s feels so utterly special and genuine. I truly believe if there is a reason humans evolved the way we did, it’s so we can be the guardians of life on Earth - pack bonding with animals and plants and objects is just what we do and when they love us back? It makes it all so worth it!
So fluffy! I want to kiss their belly so much!
hugs
and hi back from Ted
Sweet sweet ted, he can bite my bum any day 😂 I love his face so much!
Better warn mick that ted doesn’t so much hug or say hi as he does bite (bums).
So bums against the wall mickey!
You’re amazing!! 🫶🫶🫶
💜💜💜🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
I dreamt I was attacked by flying prawns. They bit me on the thigh.
🦐🫦🦵
Have you ever watched the tv show The Good Place? There is a dream flying prawn scene!
One of thooooose days
- in de basement cleaning up more mortar dust, got my big pink filters on and a little bonnet
…vacuum won’t start. Completely out of the blue. No. Nooo. My sweet cheese, my goodtime boy, my old reliable whaaat. Do some diags, ok, we shall get a cheap one to finish the job while i repair my bubbe
- get in car to bunnings!
…why does the car smell like metho
- check exhaust since we had some hooning dickheads last night if some cunt has gone for our catalytic i will be VERY PISSED nope ok all good i’m fine
…remember husband doesn’t know shit about cars and has adhd. Pop hood with trepidation.
…yup, the coolant tank is full balls empty YEET
I can hear the raucous, obnoxious Saturday night doof doof and associated vibrations, and I am renewed in my desire to gtfo from here and never live this close to the city ever again…
E: tonight is particularly bad. It’s coming from at least two of the houses/units around here. It is unprecedentedly loud. I want to stab someone. Aaaaarghghgh
Good morning. 😊
anyone home?
Good morning 🌞
🎵 the world says hello 🎶
I’m going to the market. Is there anything I can get youse guys?
Fresh donuts! I have not found a decent fresh jam donut in Perth. The closest I have found didn’t have jam and were like $4ea.
I miss the Preston Market.
I’ll get a ham and cheese croissant please!
Accidental nap in sun. Off to tropical soup tomorrow for a break so much move and pack and clean. And this place is a bit feral after being sick. Also last day with kitty. I don’t want to have a full time pet but it was very nice. And nice to know I can have a car here - just in case the universe conspires to give me one.
Such a cute house guest!
KITTEH! I agree there is something lovely about having a feline companion but not necessarily full time. Enjoy the soup! Really tempted to go somewhere warm but maybe not my tropical soup…
I can’t wait! It’s my tropical soup so some family time but some quiet beach time too. Sun get in MAH VIEINS
What floof!! Maybe the Cat Distribution Services will grace you soon. Safe travels!
Sun is out, and it’s time for my first grass mowing session at the new house. Also time to poison a few weeds, mostly stuff growing in the gravel also a couple of nasty looking thorny things I don’t like the look of. If I can find the gardening tools I might pull a few weeds out of the garden beds too.
