we’re back after an absence. unfortunately my week has kicked off with a full day of completely dying from eating too much food, then my body rejecting food–this is not ideal, obviously. also my internal clock is messed up and i’m way behind on some stuff
I’m a hot mess (hot, at least, according to my wife) but I’m having fun so I have that going for me.
Been pretty stressed out lately, lots of intrapersonal issues, depressing news, large changes to my schedule as well as my wife’s, trying to find something new to get us out of the house and “away from the world”.
I’m excited to make dinner though, drove to Detroit last week and got a bunch of really nice dried mushrooms that I’m going to make a soup with. Wifey is bloated so hopefully it will make her feel a little better.
Not quite a disaster but a credit card got hacked, my Microsoft account was locked for suspicious activity, and I received a very targeted phishing attempt for my banking credentials. I’m now a paid subscriber of Bitwarden, set up a shared vault with my partner, and have 2 yubikeys arriving later this week.
could be better. I had a panic attack about 2 weeks ago, been feeling on edge ever since. I have moments here and there where it feels like another panic attack is brewing, but luckily it hasn’t spiraled out of control like that initial attack.
It feels like I’m the rope in tug-of-war between my current career and my ambitions to become a physician.
There’s the long term decision and the current reality of trying to passably perform in both work and my organic chemistry class.
Is increasing trans representation in healthcare really a worthwhile personal pursuit with climate calamity on the horizon? Would it be better to channel my energy into mutual aid, community organizing, and foster care?
I wish I had an academic mentor (or any mentor) to talk to about it. Yeah, I’m a real adult now and therapy is a thing but 🤷♂️
Metaphorically grinding my teeth, dealing with an agonizing amount of mental anguish. Gender dysphoria is hitting me like a freight train, and I’m having a hell of a time trying to focus on anything else. Planning on phoning my GP this week if I don’t hear from the specialist they were supposed to refer me to. Failing that, I may have to look at my DiY options, potential health risks be damned.
Have a migraine, took my second to last “good” meds that insurance wont pay for. Have to pick up the meds they will payfor that make me loopy tomorrow.
I really should go to bed but I want to finish watching this medicore movie with my spouse when they finish changing into comfy clothes. I enjoy our quiet comfortable companionship.
ive been pretty hungry, another one of those “do i buy food or toilet paper?” weeks. i am gonna make the nastiest stoner food when that paycheck comes in ^_^
do i buy food or toilet paper?
Sucky place to be. It’s not immediate I know, but hear me out. Save some $$$ for a little bit and treat yourself to a bidet. The upfront cost pays itself off after a few months (since you won’t be buying TP anymore).
there’s good ones that don’t break the bank and it’s worth it to make the switch!
oh yeah i def need to get one, i used to have one and they are 1000x better
One of my big life stressors was time limited, and that time expired today with everything getting done that needed to for said stressor to go away, so the week is starting our pretty well.
So far it’s been stressful. I have stupid deadlines this week and the person who would usually help left last week. Worked over the weekend and already know I’m having to work over my hours for the rest of the week to make sure I get everything done in time.
The worst part is that the main paper I’m killing myself writing is something that I know people won’t read all of, but if I don’t write it then the exec will be pissed off. Wish they realised just how much work goes into these things.
Well, dealt with a Lemmy fire last night/this morning and then immediately fell out of that frying pan into some work-related IT fires…and it’s only Monday.
It’s now after 5:00, so…
spoiler
Mostly ok. Between teetering on flooding the house with a broken water heater, wife being out of town for a few days, and work being short staffed, I feel like I’m mostly handling it well. I’m just so tired. Also stressed about finances with the water heater thing.
I’m wishing you excellent digestion, effortless prioritization, energy, ease, and efficiency. ❤️
My Buff Orpington, Welsummer, and guinea chicks are all 2 weeks old today, and they are legitimately trying to fly around their enclosure even though none of them are fully fledged! It’s crazy, they are like little peeping popcorn, hopping and popping around. And they’re so funny! Somebody will occasionally find an extra long piece of pine shaving to carry around, and it starts a mad scramble as everybody else tries to catch them to steal it. 😂 I’m trying to figure out how to set up a livestream so my parents can watch them from their home. I’m also scrambling myself, trying to finish the coop and run before they outgrow the indoor enclosure.
My golden retriever is a perfect angel with them and loves to sit and watch them play. It’s hard to believe he’s only a year old, we just can’t get over how unbelievably good he is for his age. Idk if all goldens are magic angels or if we just got crazy lucky.
My 16yo is still not interested in taking the permit test or driving. He’s got my sense of caution, so I’m not really surprised. I can’t believe he’ll be a junior this year! And he’s dating, he and his partner have been together for a few months, and they’re so very good to each other. It’s so lovely to see him in love, cherishing someone and being cherished.
And my husband is almost fully recovered from Lyme! We might have social plans this weekend for the first time in a while. 🎉
Good luck getting the coop finished! I still need to finish the coops and run for our chickens and ducks - they’re currently living in our woodshed at night and free-ranging during the day until those are done. Just a heads up in case you aren’t aware already - if your guinea(s) is/are male, it might start getting aggressive when it hits around a year old, so try to prepare accordingly. Ours got very mean towards any chickens other than the two Brahmas it had bonded with and was actually harming the others. Not a guarantee that it will happen, but it might be good to have a separate space for the sake of your flock if it does. For now though, enjoy the babies; it never gets old having little peepers scrambling around and being chaos!
Eh. Been trying to get more writing done, its going okay, but could be better. Trying not to constantly overthink about evil bastards in political power in my state further attacking trans people like me. Just trying to survive.
I hope OP feels better and that everyone has a nice day for a change.
My week is going well, all things considered. I’m in the New England area and all the surrounding areas are suffering from flooding, but my town is unscathed at the moment. The ducks are pretty happy with all of the rain, the chickens not so much, and I’m annoyed that the shipping container our friends gave us for a duck coop can’t be painted to protect it from the moisture, but I’m overall thankful that the government response has been pretty quick and everyone we know is safe and sound so far.
What inspired you to eat so much? Where I am, portion sizes are absolutely out of control, and it’s reflected in the obesity rate. I literally get an average of full 3 meals out of anything I buy from any restaurant. A chipotle burrito is an entire days worth of calories nearly, and I just don’t understand how anyone over 18 can eat a full one. Kids, I get. I remember being a teenager and ravenous, but that goes away as you get older, so how do people keep eating so much??
What inspired you to eat so much?
unfortunately: an entire childhood (and so far, adulthood) of not consistently eating meals because we’re poor. this… does not endear you to good eating habits, and i’m pretty sure what i actually have at this point is a mild eating disorder that’s simply undiagnosed
That’s as bummer yo. We grew up poor, but had enough family support that food wasn’t ever a problem thankfully. It did give me a healthy hate of the Injustice system though, and a lot of trauma from state interventions into our lives that expresses itself as fight or flight anxiety when confronted. I hope you’re able to get somewhere you feel safe and secure enough that you no longer feel the need to overeat when food is available in case it isn’t later.
