Animal farm is just anti pig propaganda, there’s not much more to it.

I started to use them because I’m stuck at home with long covid and get lonely/bored. Normally I’d meet people through (sport) clubs or social events but I’m not really able to go there anymore.

Something kinda related I noticed is that many people around me are in long distance relationships. The most common reason is that they met in uni, and the job they (or their partner) got was in another country.

I don’t think that moving abroad is bad perse but in academia (probably also in other fields) it’s considered normal to have to move to another country to find work because of the scarcity of research positions and the encouragement of universities/research institutes to apply abroad. For the universities it’s great because they have a greater pool to choose workers from. But it takes a great emotional toll on the worker that has to either break up their relationship or maintain it long distance.

I would guess that this pattern I’m noticing exists also on a larger scale.

I thought of that because most people I match with don’t plan to stay in my country for long so even if I do get a relationship out of it, it probably won’t be for long term

Really makes me think twice about becoming a communist (joke)

Pigs are so cool and I don’t like that commies compare them with the bad guys

That’s awful and your response is very understandable and logical for what you’ve been through. I’ve been in similar situations where my trauma is channelled into an extreme anger that I wasn’t able to control. Honestly I still have no idea how to deal with that type of anger, it’s just awful

I want a bf so I can wear his clothes and steal his identity

I totally get what you mean though

I have long covid so everything is tiring atm

Fuvk I know I talk about my ptsd a lot here but I just can’t seen to cope anymore idk what to do and I haven’t heard anything from my therapist yet. All I can do to forget is to be social but I can’t be around people for more than a few hours a day

For some reason all my bi friends are horrible at making plans. No one takes initiative

I feel u comrade

Safety comes first, protect yourself

I used to be really into pens, but one time I went to a pen store in a rich village and the store owner didn’t want to sell to me because I didn’t look like the rich people that lived there. I switched from fountain pen to rollerball because the cartridges are more durable.

Lmao after looking into it, it seems like he is somewhat of a controversial figure. Guess I’ll have to take the content of that book with a few grains of salt. Thanks for the comment

Thanks! Those sound like good recommendations. I’m now reading the body keeps the score which was recommended by another comrade here. It’s about how the body reacts to trauma and it’s been really helpful for me to be able to recognise where a lot of my behaviour stems from.

Edit: apparently this book is somewhat controversial so maybe don’t take this as a recommendation lol

If you have the means then I can definitely recommend seeking a therapist. The least they can do is offer you insight into your own thought processes which is already very helpful. I hope you can heal though, living with ©ptsd is awful.

To be fair me too I’m just trying to remember without dissociating to ease the tension but it’s pretty hard since I never know when I’m dissociated. I wouldn’t recommend doing that by the way if you have ptsd because it can definitely harm you badly to go back to a traumatic moment without a professional to guide you through it.

Trying to do trauma therapy on myself until I can get real therapy in a few weeks. Taking the fact that I’m unusually tired today as a sign that I’m healing

7C I wear a hat, 9C my ears are fine