I decided to migrate away from gmail entirely (finally). Turns out it takes a while to migrate 19 years worth of emails. Now I need to update all the online accounts I care about. I thought this process was going to be a headache, but it’s way more of a headache than I anticipated. Just going to spend a few hours a day on it until it’s fully done.

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I’ll be ok

I think it’s going well. I’m working on a pretty cool Excel spreadsheet at work (imagine an Excel file that will bridge the gap between hand written organisation of the warehouse and using a dedicated database/software).

And at home, we’re planning to go to a horror convention this Saturday. Gf will be going as demoness while I’ll be an imp.

Last week was rough. I had to bring a friend to the emergency department because they had stopped all of their psych meds cold turkey, and their psychiatrist had just put them on a benzo about a month ago. They’re doing okay now, but they were struggling with walking, talking, eating and drinking on the day I brought them to the ED. If you’re on any benzos, please please please never stop them cold turkey, you can quite literally die from doing that. Speak with your physician about a taper plan.

The following day I was supposed to have a rather minor procedure to implant a nerve stimulator in my dorsal scapular nerve. A few months back I had this placed. There were issues with that surgery - it was supposed to take 30 minutes but took 2.5 hours, and ultimately they had to remove it because it got infected. When I came in to get it removed, the charge nurse messed up their first IV placement and put the needle through the median nerve in my hand which still hasn’t fully healed. It was a huge hassle to get this surgery scheduled because they recommended that I get the next placement done by the doc who’s done the most of this particular procedure.

The surgery was delayed about an hour because there were a bunch of accidents that day and it was already a late appointment where they advised me to stop liquids rather early in the day. Unsurprisingly I was quite dehydrated. The charge nurse here knew what he was doing and set the IV no problem in like 5 seconds flat. Unfortunately, however, they blew the IV nearly as soon as they transferred me to the operating table because they were far too aggressive when tucking that arm for surgery. They spent the next hour failing to place an IV about 7 times including using the vein finder and attempting ultrasound placement. Eventually they managed to get one in near the elbow on the arm they were going to need to tuck for surgery (in my opinion not an ideal placement) which also blew immediately upon repositioning my arm. At that point the surgeon who sounded frustrated asked me if I was okay rescheduling the procedure, and because I didn’t want a frustrated and exhausted surgeon operating on me I agreed. I don’t have a new date, but we are now 4 months out from the initial surgery and 3 trips to the operating room and I still don’t have a nerve stimulator 😩

Pretty good so far, need more podcasts to make it through the week and I just got on beehaw

Two consecutive 4-day work weeks for people in BC, Canada. Our Thanksgiving is next week, very much looking forward to it.

One of my online friends passed away earlier this year, and I just found out about it. One of her friends telegram-ed me about the news. She was a Russian who’s outspoken about the war, and also seems to be struggling against depression. I have no idea how she passed, and I can’t bear to ask.

Apparently I’m one of the people who communicated with her in the last few months of her life. I’m bad at words, so I try to send funny animal videos, and occasional hug emoji to make people feel better. I hope whatever I did could alleviate some of her sorrows in her final moments.

I have some online friends who have really been irritating me lately because they message me all the time about stuff I don’t want to engage with and if I don’t respond they’ll find me thru other apps and message me there. I have uninstalled a couple apps and am ghosting them for a couple days until I can stop feeling so grouchy about it but unsure of my long term plan.

Pretty chill, not been doing much so far. Need to attend to my weed grow a bit and train the new plant but that’s about it.

Hello everyone,

Getting more and more frustrated over this tuition thing. I don’t wanna do it if these kids become the cause of my stress. Also, been on a consumption kick. I have been so focused on consuming content and not paying attention to my friends that I feel horrible inside.

Started Interview with the Vampire and Patriot Games tho!

Let myself make an impulse decision so I’m getting a tattoo that is completely silly and stupid. I’m hoping I won’t regret it

My weeks are pretty routine (and I like schedules and routines). Wake up, organise household stuff, gym, do study related stuff, Dutch study stuff, do more household related stuff, wind down for the day, sleep. All in all, I can’t complain.

How do I render screaming into a text format without using an obnoxious amount of capital letters?

I’m okay. I’m mostly settled in my new place. Landlord and Comcast are both here fixing a few issues and getting internet installed. I got a nice used dining set, but beyond that I’m somewhat lacking in furniture right now.