things have been fairly quiet this week. not much to report.
I have some online friends who have really been irritating me lately because they message me all the time about stuff I don’t want to engage with and if I don’t respond they’ll find me thru other apps and message me there. I have uninstalled a couple apps and am ghosting them for a couple days until I can stop feeling so grouchy about it but unsure of my long term plan.
It’s monday
this is horrible news for Garfields all around the world
Two consecutive 4-day work weeks for people in BC, Canada. Our Thanksgiving is next week, very much looking forward to it.
I use this time of year to larp as someone who has a 4 day work week.
chuck went in for knee surgery on thursday and came out a tripawd. his injury was much worse than originally thought. he also had diarrhea most of the weekend, but we’re finally out of that stage now. he is resting and seems to be adapting pretty well, all things considered.
last photo of him with four legs.
my other dog is in for a teeth cleaning today and getting at least one pulled today, which means 2/3 dogs here will be drugged up and in recovery of some sort. thankfully dental recovery is usually quite quick and easy.
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Hopefully the sleep study goes well! At least where I am, sleep studies are generally now conducted in your own home. It was a more seamless experience that way compared to going into the lab.
Pretty chill, not been doing much so far. Need to attend to my weed grow a bit and train the new plant but that’s about it.
My weeks are pretty routine (and I like schedules and routines). Wake up, organise household stuff, gym, do study related stuff, Dutch study stuff, do more household related stuff, wind down for the day, sleep. All in all, I can’t complain.
Starting to feel like I need to leave lemmy. Alt right types are in full swing on basically every instance and I can’t go a day without someone call me a “r——d.” Feels like the worst parts of Reddit some days because community mods are - just like on Reddit - too scared to ban people.
Do you still find that to be the case on BeeHaw? Admittedly I never browsed Reddit all too much before, and likewise only occasionally browse Lemmy, but really only this instance so I don’t really have that many data points.
No beehaw is noticeably better but I like to look at other instances occasionally + beehaw might be leaving the fediverse due to growth pains
community mods are - just like on Reddit - too scared to ban people
There’s those, and there’s also the opposite.
Some communities on larger instances have been infiltrated by mods who are happy to remove comments and ban users in direct contradiction of their own community rules, going as far as citing the rule a comment is explicitly following as the reason for removal or ban, just because it doesn’t match their personal ideology.
Other mods will engage obvious trolls, going as far as telling them which rules they’re breaking over and over, not putting an end to it even when the troll admits breaking the rules on purpose and starts insulting the mods directly… but the troll’s initial arguments had a clear ideological slant which seems to align with the mod’s, so no modding there.
Coincidentally, both of those seem to happen with “power mods”, who are “modding” dozens of communities.
I can’t go a day without someone call me a “r——d”
It may feel hard, but when you get insulted, you report it, and there is no modding in sight… I’d suggest leaving (blocking) that community.
There is a reason there are like 20+ “cats” communities on different instances, not everyone can get along even on a seemingly innocuous topic like that.
I think it’s important for me to mention that I have blocked several instances and dozens of users over the last two weeks. I am aware of these solutions, but eventually (in such a small world like the fediverse) all the removals start adding up and you start realizing there’s little left. 
I wouldn’t call the fediverse particularly “small”, there are over 1000 Lemmy instances, with the total fediverse clocking at over 3 million active users (around 12 million accounts), and while the interactions on the different projects are not all the same, I think there is a lot of options to choose from.
And technically… Lemmy doesn’t support much of it (yet), but all projects can interact with each other.
Some tools may be still missing, but I think it should be possible to find a comfy place for everyone.
I understand what you are saying, but there is no denying that most people on Lemmy are just kind of browsing across instances and not paying particular attention to where they are. The default setup is not your subscriptions or local instance, so it’s to be expected. As a result there is a bleeding effect, for lack of a better term, and a general culture that is emerging across most of the posts any one would see on a given day. And unfortunately, the tone of these conversations has become increasingly heated lately. Or at least it seems that way to me.
In the grand scheme of things, 3,000,000 active users is not that large. Only a fraction of them are posting and engaging in the comment sections. I regularly see the same people almost every day in comments. There are some instances where it’s literally the same 15 to 20 people basically carrying on all conversation while thousands look on. 
school [._.]
Doing Okay. I’ve gotten through my hyperfocus on leveling a new-to-me class in Final Fantasy XIV, so I am able to pull my brain back to writing more. I want to get two more chapters up on my Patreon before my next public chapter is released on Thursday.
We had a windstorm midway through the week last week, with knocked about 75% of the apples off of my little apple tree, a few days before they would have been perfectly ripe. So we made apple crumble, and it was absolutely delicious. None of the apples were wormy this year even though we don’t spray the tree- just lucky I suppose.
I saw the CPAP specialist, who is apparently a respiratory guy, and he agreed to tighten up the settings on my CPAP so it stops giving me jumpscares in the middle of the night. I can go see him again in a month if that doesn’t help. So far it has not, but it’s only been four days. I also wrote to the nurse helpline to ask how I should dry my hose, and they not only offered to send me a spare hose for free, they are also sending a full face mask for when I inevitably get a cold. This is of course a completely new experience with ResMed, but they can keep it up!
Things have been somewhat more stable. My anxiety and depression seem to be somewhat under control although there are still the really bad days here and there. I’m slowly getting over severing ties with my best friend of 18 years and am slowly coming to the realisation that maybe it was all for the best. Otherwise, all is the same, gym, work, therapy, some light gaming and reading. Things will be okay.
Things WILL be okay, just to add an extra voice. You got this.
Thank you! That really means a lot and I appreciate your encouragement!
Pretty well. Busy at work, with lots of things that must be done afterwork.
But last weekend, we took time for a train trip to a bigger city to see friends and visit a museum. It was like little holidays.
I haven’t been sleeping well at all. Keep waking up at around 4, unable to fall back asleep again. Because of this there are times where become very nasty and hateful for no reason at all, and I really hate it. It’s not who I usually am, and not who I want to be.
I guess I just have a lot on my mind and it’s just not possible to shut down the endless grinding of these thoughts going through my head.
Taking a sick day today to catch up on my sleep and rest, hopefully things will look a little brighter tomorrow.I had a phase where I’d basically do the same - wake up at four and be incredibly snappy for the rest of the morning. It eventually passed, and I hope the same will be said for yours.
Well my day off really helped, napped throughout the day and slept alone at night for a change (my partner can be very restless in her sleep).
Hopefully things will improve from here on out.
Bad news: Anxiety’s been climbing for no real reason. Stomach knot continuously tightening, even noticing it while lying down, which is new. Tried a cannabis gummy to see if it’d at least unwind the knot. No tolerance to THC at all after about a decade of not using it, so the dose I thought was sensible - one gummy - turned out to be way too much. It was by no means the relaxing experience I was kind of desperate for, but I did devour an entire bag of baby carrots without noticing, so that happened.
Neutral news: Beyond that, pretty okay. Routine’s been mostly unchanged.
Good news: In January a massive tree fell during a blizzard and crashed through the roof in the room where I was sleeping, and while we managed to get the tree lifted off the house there’s been nothing but tarps covering what remains of the roof ever since then. Because there was so much damage to so many houses as a result of the storm - and the insurance only uses one construction company in the region - we’ve been on a waiting list to have the collapsed part of our house fixed for six months. They’ve said they ordered the trusses to fix it as of one week ago, and should be out to get started Oct 16. I am super hyped about this.
