Weather songs please
November Rain Purple Rain
Scorpions Rock you like a Hurricane
It sure does feel like a hurricane
It’s raining Men!
Hallelujah
here comes the rain again - eurhythmics
Honk Honk ⛵️
🍏🍎🍐🍊🍋🍈🫐🍓🍇🍉🍌🍒🍑🥭🍍🥥🥦🥑🫛🍆🍅🥝🥬🥒🌽🥕🥐🍠🫚🥔🧅🥯🍞🥖🥨🧀🧇🥞🧈🍳🥚🥓🥩🍗🍖🫓🍕🍟🍔🌭🥙🧆🌮🌯🥗🍲🍜🍝🥘🍛🍣🍱🥟🦪🍥🍘🍚🍙🐠🍤🪼🦀🐙 🍗🥮🍢🍡🍧🍰🧁🥧🍦🍨🎂🍮🍭🍬🍫🥜🌰🍪🍿🍯🥛☕️🍵🍺🍶🥤🧋🧃🥂🍷🥃🍸🍹🧉🔋Leadenhall scones with heavy cream and stone fruit jam please. With a bit of luck I won’t get blown away with that on board.
🏛🥯💣🥛🪨🍯
Goose egg salad please.
🥚🥗
Thanks, delicious
Tornado omelet please
💨🥚
I would like two hermit crabs clamped to my nipples please. Lemon flavour
please enjoy your free mantis shrimp upgrade 🦐🦐🍋
Oh do I know the club for you…
We’ve probably already met
Ahoy!
🍻
oh the weather outside is frightful
I think it’s gonna get worse. I’m going out for supplies soon.
i’m going out to work in a few hours
Stay safe Bac!
Don’t forget the biscuits
🙉
There’s some lovely sun and also hectic wimd, please tell me how I should feel about this as I am confused
Aaaaand now 5 of us are sick because old mate came to work sick yesterday.
Fucks sake.
Currently the scores are even 7s. Will or will not Simon siphon?
Pee in his coffee mug (don’t do that…)
Conversely…do it
Surprisingly, the plants on the patio held up surprisingly well. One had been knocked out of its pot and ended up upside down (no clue where the pot is), but the rest are still there
Image ft. Plant reveal (even though like 90% of them are dead now 😔):
It’s a bit chaotic. I inherited it all from the LT that moved out a few months ago. Unfortunately I’m still trying to figure out how to keep things alive and ended up killing most of them. Gonna do a spring clean next month though
I’m pretty sure I heard some things toppling last night but I have a trajillion other priority things to do today so I’m not even going to look at anything until tomorrow tbh
I had an empty 20L bucket go missing. Bon voyage bucket. May your journey be full of wonder and adventure.
Well… it’s in. The assignment is in - but I feel so thoroughly muted about it because it turns out my supervisor had to go through what I’d written with a lot of red
inkpixels and rewrite a chunk of it. He wasn’t at all trying to put me down, if anything just help me so I’d get this across the line, but I feel like I have such a long, long, long way to go and I might have bitten off more than I can chew. I really feel quite low about how limited my brain capacity is compared to 5 years ago. Would love to have some kind of win this week to feel better about myself :(so many hugs, sounds like you need a holiday
I really was hoping to go visit my aunt at the end of the month for a break + TLC but it seems like she might have other plans (lots going on in her life as well). I might head to my hidey hole in NSW if she isn’t available. I really would like to unplug for a bit
As counter-intuitive as it sounds having a supervisor being that interested in laying down a lot of red… is a win :)
I agree, it’s a win.
two things are worse than having someone help edit
someone who gives praise and does nothing when it really does need help
someone who puts down for no reason when the work is perfectly fine
but i get it, it’s a bit of an ego bruise
hugs
For sure, I have been very lucky to have a supportive mentor, I just feel like I’ve failed him (and myself) a bit - but better not to dwell on it, onward we go, even if the end result isn’t really ground breaking or entirely my idea, I’ll have learned something from it I hope.
having a mentor is the most wonderful thing in the world 🥹
WTF. I just saw the news about a man who poured a thermos of hot coffee on a baby.
I have a personal computer for the first time in over four years (my last company was very lax and I used their laptop for most things). Now I have Steam installed for first time in just as long. Very excite
Even at lax places I’ve never been able to get past knowing they can look at my web history and that it’s technically not my computer, plus there’s always those user account controls that mean I couldn’t install anything.
What did you end up getting?
I got: Lenovo LOQ 15.6" FHD 144Hz Gaming Laptop (Intel Core i5)[GeForce RTX 2050]. The only game I’ll play is Dota 2 probably so this should do the trick nicely
It’s good you know what you need it for. I built a pretty hectic PC a little while ago and the most intensive thing I play I’d Elden Ring. Otherwise I’m happy with older games. I probably didn’t need to go that hard with the specs
The peregrine are back in the city. I think she has laid two eggs so far https://www.youtube.com/live/VLLNNTjaSEA?si=NIcrIT3OZVQUcPHr
Traffic lights are down corner Sussex St and Bell St Pascoe Vale South, and police are directing traffic. Haven’t seen police directing traffic for ages.
well that was exciting
a tempest came through the north just as I was just coming home
of course I didn’t have my raincoat on nor a hair tie.
Outcome of the ultrasound with Sammi - no obvious tumours or obstruction. Enlarged lymph nodes in her stomach, so they want to proceed with the other ultrasound and take some samples. Meanwhile she’s home alert and hungry.
In other news there was a three vehicle stack in the middle of Main Street Mordialloc on the way home. Hopefully it’s cleared by now…so many hugs, hope she gets better soon
Random heavy rain in CBD just as I’m leaving work 😭
It’s raining horizontally out west. The wind is something else too
I left work just before it started to pour.
Couple of branches on the road in my way home.
The winds are going to be around till the end of the weekend sadly.
Also we have a guest in house massage service at work today.
I had a quick 10 minute back and should massage. God I could use another.
I just started barbecuing haha
RIP
I need to know are they still on the BBQ?
Uh no. Why ?
Because I wanted one :(
Ohh bud I’m sorry.
Spicy pork. soooo good haha
I brought my bin back in.
So many bins were tipped over while I was coming home today. Looks like half of them had spilt their rubbish everywhere and still had rubbish bags inside. Tbf if I was a Garbo, I wouldn’t be picking rubbish bins up in this weather either, but bin time on the street I drove down was this morning, so they’re gonna have to deal with full bins for another week!
My bin night is Thursday night/Friday morning, hoping things settle down by then…
More of a spray here (we got the heavy earlier) fortunately just as I dropped the papou home. And fortunately over by the time I picked up Sammi. Can’t say the same for the wind, much to her chagrin.
Copped it here too. It was wild. It would go quiet for a sec, then a big gust of turbo wind would come and it accelerated them to about the speed of a bullet. One hit me on the neck. I thought it was hail or something, it fucking hurt!
This is the face of, “why are you at home during the week, and where the fuck are my treats homie.”
The look of “you better be here tomorrow mfer, I don’t have opposable thumbs and those treats aren’t opening by themselves (I’ve tried)”.
She actually did try!!! I came home the other day and she’d grabbed the treat bag and had been gnawing at it to try to get to them.
Oh my goodness 😂
Whos a handsome boy! Yes he is!
Aw sweet Gibson, the beauty of her face and colours is awesome 💜💜
The symmetry in her markings is something else 😻
You know, I didn’t notice till I saw this picture!
really long safety+organisation+life+mental health uodates
Today’s the 50th day since I returned and found all the damage and theft of my belongings. They’ve just about all been replaced now, there’s a couple of cables I’ve noticed missing, and one of the replacement things didn’t include a cable, but that’s about it.
They installed that gate thingy, but forgot to get the parts they need to make it actually work. It’s on un-detachable gears and pulleys, so it’s basically stuck open and doesn’t do anything. They measured all the door frames (most of them are cracked from where he fucked around with the locks), but apparently the tradie man forgot how to measure properly, so he came to redo it today.
ALLEGEDLY someone will be out to install new door frames and such tomorrow, but there’s probably no guarantees on that. They seem confused about if that’s actually happening or not. Apparently they’re installing proper security cameras tomorrow, and apparently on Friday the locksmith will come past to fix the shed lock.
AFAIK the deadbolt for the front door was knocked back, but it’s not that bad I suppose as the screen door essentially functions as an external deadbolt. I always lock that, so it’s fine. I’m worried that once that change the doors and door frames though, they’ll also change the locks to shitty ones that locksmith referred to as “night locks”. They’re easily opened by shimmering a butter knife down the side, or honestly even giving it a firm shoulder (it doesn’t even damages the lock, because it barely sits in there!). Don’t know what in house safety that’ll leave me, except to hope and prey they don’t move another drop kick in.
The program manager has been on “unplanned personal leave” for 2 or 3 weeks at this point. Not sure what’s happened, she was just here one day and then hasn’t come back since. The “case management practitioner supervisor” has been talking at me a lot. She gives kind of assistant manager vibes. Doesn’t have a whole lot of say in anything, so compensates by having little ego and power trips. The bloke above her, the regional manager, doesn’t seem that bad kind of, he’s so far maintained a professional demeanor with me, but he’s not too keen on doing very much and acts a lot more like a penny pinching CEO than anything else.
The org case manager took an “unplanned half day” on Monday, and no showed to a meeting we had scheduled. I, along with the 11 other people attending the meeting, just had to chill in the teams waiting room (which I super wish allowed cross-attendee conversations), and after about 15 minutes I ended up being the one to tell everyone the meeting had been cancelled and telling them they could leave. Even though I wasn’t running the damn thing.
On the DL, it seems that most of my care team and workers are all pretty pissed about the way things are running. Apparently they cancelled another meeting a week prior with 15 minutes notice.
I took to calling the “case management practitioner supervisor” (who seems to do more than supervise, and is temporarily program managing too), every single day about the security gate and other arrangements. I’m super pissed about it, it feels like they’ve kind of relegated my safety to concern number #45. There’s still no active protection keeping me safe, and I’m still here on my own. It also feels horrific that the other dude seems to get off on intimidation more than anything else, and nothing’s actually been done to stop that. The cops haven’t followed up about him tearing up the lawn, or the theft and damage, the gate is still non functional, the gate still doesn’t have a lock (besides my unapproved padlocks).
I still freak out and spiral into a panic everytime I hear a particularly loud motorcycle, and I check my cameras at every noise. I still have a constant fear that he’s somehow inside the house, and I still wake up at 2 or 3am in a sweat with a looming sense of terror that somebody is standing over me.
In the last couple of weeks, I seem to have a lot of repressed rage that sometimes bubbles up. I’m usually able to keep it repressed, but every couple of days, something minor seeming will happen and ploop I’m in a blind rage. That was the main reason for taking my Lemmy break, I don’t want to run the risk of that happening on some unsuspecting soul here. I’m seeing a psych weekly (her suggestion + child protection is paying the gap, and will pick up the rest of the costs for 6 months until I turn 18). It’s helping, but the primary focus has been on other things, with this as secondary.
Tafe has been a useful distraction. Being completely dumbfounded about how their LMS works, and how different it is from high school has been a useful distraction from everything else. Besides that, I’ve been trying to throw myself into my projects, but some of them just annoyed me too much so I temporarily gave up.
So many hugs.
Thanks SG. I just want to say that I really appreciate how much of a rock you and the rest of the DT regs have been through the entire ordeal. It helps to have somewhere to vent that isn’t biased towards the org
more hugs
More thanks
God, that whole situation sounds awful. You’re doing the right thing by pushing and calling everyday to follow up on things.
Learning that LMS will keep you busy. They’re done of the worst programs ever made. At least you have something to take your mind off things
Thanks tom. I’ve honestly been beginning to wonder if I’m putting unfair expectations up, mostly due to the absolute apatheticness most people involved irl seem to show. I did get some hopefully good news about an hour after I posted that. The “case management practitioner supervisor” sent me a text to say that “a number of builders will be there replacing the door frames and people for the cctv stuff”. I’m a little worried about their implementation, as before the doors may make the situation worse if they don’t reuse the same locks, and the cctv system might end up being installed in some office somewhere monitored by randos. AFAIK it won’t be on premises. It’ll be proper corporate type surveillance, so remote monitoring (by the people living here anyways) won’t be a thing. But if it’s like the ones they put in resis, it also has extremely good night sight
And yes, I’ve never used something that looks so modern, yet acts like it hasn’t been redesigned since 4kbps was the average internet speed! I had a zoom call earlier with a “success coach” from the TAFE who walked me through how to use it and what to do. Seems I can safely ignore most of the buttons, which is nice. But there’s still a bit to figure out
Not unfair expectations at all.
They royally fucked up and failed to protect you. And they’re still failing to protect you.
Dude I’m so sorry.
If it’s any consolation those absences probably mean shit is hitting the fan for a few staff behind the scenes over this fiasco, and the power trips are just her pettily taking that out on you. Classic HR behaviour. But it really doesn’t help the lasting effect you’re experiencing.
Btw the rage is incredibly normal in the circumstances and along with the rest may be a symptom of ptsd. I’m really hoping one day you can get well away from these incompetent chucklefucks because what you’re going through is so difficult.
I’m wondering if (for now) you can jam a chair under the door handle for extra reinforcement or warning, put metal pots that would topple making noise, and keep an uncapped can of oven cleaner spray handy?
At least then it would be a more specific sound heralding trouble so you might feel less jumpy at smaller noises, and you would have something to grab if you felt threatened. Whatever helps.
Edit: Even just a firm door wedge or a temporary lock might be some protection, delay, or help alert you.
You can even improvise with a fork which isn’t perfect but is something that can be done fairly quickly short term to give some early warning.
Ps. I hope this unsolicited advice isn’t stressing you out worse or making you angry. It’s a bad habit of mine. Just hoping there might be some comfort or something workable in there.
Thanks Melba. You’re probably right, at least I kind of hope someone’s copping it. But I doubt it. I think everyone’s gotten off mostly scott free, because the program manager, and area manager were on leave, and the “case management practitioner supervisor” had been sacked. And of course, nobody ever wants to rock the boat when in an interim role, so I think child protection exploited that as well, I’ve seen it happen before so it wouldn’t be unsurprising
There’s just 198 days until I turn 18, and then these people don’t really have a say in my life. However, I will likely still live here anywhere between an extra 6 months and year after I turn 18, although then I’ll have even less recourse in such situations
I can jam things in the door, but I’m not sure it’s really worth it. I already know that there’s nobody either in the house or my room, it’s just trying to teach my brain to comprehend that at 2:30 in the morning that’s an issue.
I don’t have oven cleaner, but always have something I know how to improvise with in case of self defence. I don’t keep a knife in my room anymore, because that does seem a little OTT and paranoid, but there’s always something. I also got a bright torch off Amazon (technically we’re meant to have one of those giant ones in the evacuation kit, but the last one was noticed to be completely corroded and smashed about 6 months ago, and they’ve yet to replace it). It has a strobing function, which might be useful, although I do wonder about the effectiveness of them.
If the new doors and frames do result in shitty locks, I’ll probably have to figure out how to install one myself. That’s probably a rather bad idea, so I’ll definitely have to see what happens next before I do anything like that, but it’s a possibility I have shoved away in the back of my mind if it’s ever as bad as it was again
Also probably worth noting: I have security cameras all over the property, and as of today, there’s now proper ones with a UPS as well. It is technically possible to get into the house by breaking into the neighbours backyard, then jumping the side fence, then shimmeying a window up, but it doesn’t seem super likely. So I’ll always have advanced notice if he returns
And no, absolutely not. I appreciate the advice and suggestions
These organisations are all about saving face but I suspect at least some manure is flying behind the scenes.
And yeah, I totally get it.
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