I’m so fucking tired
Not great.
Last night my house flooded and I’m still cleaning up water and nasty shit. Everything smells like piss.
It triggered a fight over the fact that I still don’t have a full time job despite months of looking, and we are stuck in this place until I find something better than 3rd party labor.
My vehicle is leaking gasoline while running and the shocks are fucked but I can’t afford to fix it. My wife’s vehicle needs transmission work.
Also… gestures wildly around the US
Depression is a bitch and I don’t have insurance to go to a therapist or get my broken tooth fixed.
So yeah. Not great.
Damn dude, life is kicking you while you’re down, I’m sorry. Keep your head held high whenever you can.
Awful, depressed, worthless, financially ruined. Currently sitting on my friends couch after sleeping here because my wife and I had the worst fight we ever had over the past 2 days, and I don’t we will recover as we both decided it’s probably best to just part ways but not sure how to make that work yet due to kids and schedules. This is a fun weekend…
You’ve been really active here! That’s great. Nice to have people shaking up the place.
Now, to your question: pissed off and dangerously on the edge of blowing, with no apparent reason.
Thanks qyron! How longs the pissed off feeling been going on?
Not long enough to be worrisome.
That’s good. Lean on us, we got you
I’m mixed.
I’ve had depression off and on, it cleared up early last week but came back this weekend.
I went to a friend’s and we went for a walk and played Uno with their kids and it made me feel a bit better, but I spent most of the weekend just laying in bed.
I’m stressed about Canada’s election. And the tariff mayhem and how that’s going to affect my job. I tried diversifying my finances, but seeing my assets drop hurts.
My wife is starting a new diet with her gym, so she’s doing all the cooking lately and honestly I’m missing that creative outlet.
I don’t know, just a lot of headwinds right now. I’ve been very lucky, but it’s rough out there.
You’ve got a lot going on from day to day food to finances to the bigger picture of politics. It’s bound to ground you down.
Bad, thanks! But I’m focused on taking care of my mother’s medically delicate cat while convincing a kitten to leave the door to the medically delicate cat alone.
I’m going great outside of one thing. I miss my soulmate. It’s been over 2 years. My heart is still empty. I’m dating again but I feel hollow.
Not great. My depression and anxiety have left me bedridden in the last few days. I feel worthless and like the whole world either doesn’t care or despises me. I don’t know which is worse.
I also suffer from dissociation and feel like I don’t know who I am as a person, it’s like I am being pulled in different directions, and it’s a real struggle.
I hear you Tropper. We’re here, lean on us
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That’s not easy! Sometimes the smallest thing can be the biggest mountain. You’ve done great 👌
Hanging in there.
Can‘t recover from the death of my cat in october. It totally devastated me.
I feel you, my cat died August ‘23 and I am still having a rough time. I have since adopted two kittens and I love them both so much, but I really miss Polly.
I hope it gets better for you.
If I wouldn‘t have adopted the little jinx i probably would have died. Nontheless, i miss Fenya dearly.
Thanks. I guess it gets a bit easier over time
If you have some spare time, you might try visiting an animal shelter, just to give the animals there some playtime and affection. We are much longer-lived than our pets, and it’s our responsibility to make sure they have the best lives possible. I bet you did that for your kitty, and they were thankful for it.
She was my best buddy for 24 years. I‘ve rescued a kitten already and my now older cat is the best mother she could be.
The next shelter is a bit far away, though, so i am not that often there as i used to be
Tired, anxious, depressed, feel like shit in general. Declined an invitation to play boardgames with some old friends this weekend because I feel tired and anxious and depressed and overwhelmed and now I have more anxiety and guilt because I feel like I should have gone and I will further lose contact with them over this and they will hate me now.
It gets like that sometimes and it’s so hard. Dragging yourself through life is exhausting, and it means we don’t have energy for seeing friends. Cancelling plans comes with it’s own problems though, that sets off all sorts of thoughts. How are you trying to manage it today?
To be honest I’m not really managing much, just been alternating between staring at the wall and staring at sports. I might go for a short run later on the treadmill.
I hear you. Going for a run is 100% a good idea it’ll help
I did go for a run and it did help a little.
Great well done
Speaking as someone with anxiety, try not to predict what others feel. You’re likely going to be wrong, and never in a good way. It’s not your responsibility to guess what others are feeling, it’s their responsibility to tell you. Always assume the most neutral opinion from others, and only change that if they say otherwise.
If you need to stay alone to recuperate, then go all-in on it. Let your friends know that you had a bout of anxiety. If you’re worried about them being upset, then not giving them a reason won’t help that.
I wish you the best, and please ask if you have any questions that I might be able to help with.
Surviving but not thriving.
It seems like every time we get a decent chunk of money, some kind of event occurs and strips it away. Last time it was a car repair, this time unexpected tuition. I’m thankful that we’re not going into debt, but damn.
The promotion at work has come with a lot of added stress. I’m proud of the work I do and I think it’s worth it I think for now. But it has meant that I’ve had to pull back on some other goals and hobbies. For example, I haven’t touched the book that I want to write in over 6 months.
Cycling has atrophied as well, but we’re moving again in 3 months, this time back to a place with more cycling events that I know, so I’m really going to try to get back into at least a Tuesday night ride. I used to love epic randonneuring adventures, and I wanted to get a few more in on the bucket list, but I’m starting to fear that my body is getting too old to take them on. I’m certainly feeling a sense of urgency. When you’re in your 20s and 30s it feels like you have all the time in the world, but it’s hit me lately just how scarce time is as a resource.
My wife and I are starting to get to that age where the window to have a second kid is closing. I’m hopeful that it will happen this year, but then again, another baby will take away from those other goals as well.
She’s also struggling because the job she had lined up after school this June was HHS funded, now that is in jeopardy. We’ve already bought a house in the new town too; so we’re paying rent and a mortgage at the moment. We can afford it on my salary and her internship but I feel it’s tighter than I have been since my early 20s.
The overall situation of the world also weighs heavily on me. I try to do my part where I can. These things ebb and flow as they always have, so I try to remain hopeful. I’m encouraged by what is happening today. We must stay vigilant to take back our rights from those who strive to oppress us.
I just got into therapy in October to help me deal with these things. I always had a stigma around therapy, ironically my wife is a therapist. Anywho, it has really worked for me. I am trying to realign my thinking so that I’m not always the victim, that the things we do and the intentions we set are FOR us and our future. I can certainly tell a marked difference between the weeks I can attend and the weeks I don’t. I’m hopeful here as well, but for now I’m surviving, not thriving.
Actually very awesome today. Going to a protest with a new friend. Exciting!
