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Cake day: June 11th, 2023

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  • I can relate to this, infact in addition to these experiences I have chronic muscle pain from tension which primarily comes from being in contact with others.

    Being isolated and in control of my environment has been pretty much the only way to minimize it.

    As for which of the causes you described are behind the energy drain; for me being perceived automatically turns on what feels like a background awareness that cannot be turned off until no one is there.

    I consider masking to be part of this awareness; a self-defense mechanism that we learn early in our development to protect ourselves from harm by calculating how we react in order to minimize potential harm. In those situations it is impossible to feel entirely safe because we cannot control our environment and if we won’t react carefully we might end up with even more interaction we desperately don’t want.

    Perhaps it is similar in nature to how something that lives in the wild has to maintain a constant awareness to avoid being caught off guard and potentially killed. An activation of fight-or-flight/primitive brain centers in the brain.

    That is one source of energy drain in itself

    There is also the energy drain from the much higher amount of sensory input we are being fed from our brains having many more synapses than those without autism. We can’t simply filter out or ignore everything we are receiving, there’s simply too much of it. It has to be stopped at the source before it can become sensory input. Isolation is the easiest way to accomplish this.













  • rm deletes files the normal way everyone who actually knows unix expects it

    trash-cli tries to bring the comfort of windows to linux for the crybabies who like to delete files so recklessly that they end up screwing themselves later. (the same people who don’t ever take backups or snapshots)