WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.
I just passed my Learners . It’s been a while since I’ve driven so I thought I should take the tests and lessons again.
I got two wrong but it was just being overly cautious 😬
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Congrats 🥂
that is so me 🥺
Thank you all so much for your kind thoughts. 😄😘
Yay!!! Go you!!! Congrats!!! 🍺
OMG that’s SO exciting, Goons!!
Congratulations on both your successful passing of the test and your cautious attitude. I wish more people on the road were like you!
ee! well done!
Yay! Congrats!
Yay!!!
Congratulations!!
During my sobriety I’ve been taking something called suboxone. You could liken it to an opiate blocker, though it does have a degree of a sedative effect.
This becomes unnoticeable after a while.
2 months ago I decided to stop taking it, as it was no longer required.
And so it turns out the mild sedation was not so mild at all. I was emotionally numb to a degree that I had forgotten what either positive or negative really felt like.
It has been tough. I have no desire to return to my old life, I have no cravings. I’ve had a constant underlying headache from various parts of my body being incredibly tense since the beginning.
But coming back into the world full of feelings and a nervous system that’s been half asleep for a decade has been really, really hard. Everything feels so intense, both emotionally and physically.
I love it. But it’s hard work. I’m stuck in this “reconfiguration” stage and I think I’ve mindlessly said “man, today has been a hard day” every day for a few weeks now.
I’ve played the best music I’ve probably played in my life over the last 2 months. I feel like myself. I’m excited. But it’s a struggle. Were I not already somewhat used to dealing with stuff like this by myself, I think I would have run back to the medicine.
No one I know in real life knows about what’s happening. I just needed to get it out of my system.
Thanks for listening.
/vent
If you’ve through a lot but I’ve also had the fortitude to get through it.
You’re a good person and deserve everything that life has to offer.
It’s a great achievement to even put that into words, well done!
So many hugs. You’re incredibly brave and strong, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. ( and good too. )
Thank you :)
It’s an incredibly hard thing you’ve gone through.
We’re here for you man, always. you’re a kind soul and don’t forget that.
I’m so proud of you friend, all you have survived, your willpower and perseverance is inspiring. You’re the kindest most thoughtful person I’ve the honour of knowing. Whatever happens I know you’re going to pull through and be that much more stronger for it!
I knoww. Plus he’s the best cat dad in the world .😭
That’s really kind of you :)
I feel like people don’t understand the impact medication has when it flattens everything out. Drugs may get rid of the lows, but they also shave off all the highs and that can take quite a toll on you
We are always listening, my dude. We’ve got your back!
Brains are amazing at recovering and reconfiguring. It will get easier. You’ve done so many hard things, and come through it. We are here for the vents any time you need it!
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU MATE
I hope that soon you can be desensitised to all the reconfiguration stuff and that nasty constant headache fucks off
Back from daily vitamin D exposure. The sun is glorious with light winds too, perfect winter’s day. Vibes are high for Friday arvo.
Bedroom light shade is up
It was in lots of flat pieces of plastic that had to be bent and attached together so it took a while, but I’m pleased with the result. I just need to get to the assembly of the bedside tables and the bedroom will be done.
That’s really pretty 😄
I forgot to post the results of dinner last night.
I may have put way too much chicken. The pot is overflowing with sauce and chicken and the bacon I added.
I was expecting the bacon to be salty but it didn’t really come out overpowering.
Also I think the Aldi sauce I used had a lot of garlic in it but it’s back to its tasty best.
Felt like the quality had dropped over the last couple of months.
Tomorrow for the Winter Solstice Games I have lots of wood, potatoes, marshmallows and chestnuts. What else do I need or need to do? Poetry? Spells? Chanting? Nudity?
Oh yes please it is finally solstice we were about to remove the Sun here
I will pray for you, bacon. 🙏
Thank you.
Always here to support nudity and chanting. May the long night bring you peace and excitement for days to come (I don’t know if that’s an actual thing, it just feels cool to say)
Effigies of your enemies to toss into the fire? Arrange some stones into a henge?
Arrange some enemies into a henge!
I don’t have any enemies that I know of 😔
Chips?
Chips on a bonfire?
Oh didnt realise there was a bonfire. Oops!
No problem!
I think you’ve got most of it right. Grog is helpful as chestnuts can be a bit dry and floury. Not that this is a problem, just a glass or three of the old nasty helps the medicine go down.
Skyclad is strickly for summer imo. Also if doing skyclad, then watch out for impertinent echidnas. They’re a bit of a menace. I think they’re in league with the fundamentalist christians.
Lots of singing helps the sun return too. So bring out your favorite playlist and have at it!!
Pretty lights
UFO?
lights pretty
Oooh I love that stand!
Just finished Expedition 33. I know I was coming to the end and I’m still… but why. Why.
I haven’t even started yet.
I cannot wait to follow along when you do! I want to know allllll of your thoughts and adventures!
😹 okay, I will take little videos and do a commentary, even if I have to learn how to do so. 😄
Omg can you pleeeease. I would love that!!
A wild ride wasn’t it?
I couldn’t put it down once I started.
I’m not ready to. I went into finale somehow hoping it wasn’t actually the finale and kept shouting NO NO NO NO NO NO
Who’s ending did you choose?
spoiler
Verso. But I’ll go back and play Maelle’s once I’ve stopped crying.
Same. My son just started playing, I gave him a hint on what to do when he gets there.
I hope your son loves it as much as so many of us!!
He’s avoided watching me, but knows enough.
So far he’s loving it.
I had a fever dream that nuclear war happened in the middle east and the whole world economic order basically collapsed so I jumped in my car and drove north and moved in with a family member, earning keep by cooking and cleaning and making money by painting giant paintings of wolves.
As fever dreams go, it was ok
may I go political?
spoiler
That stupid FUCKING FUCK HEAD TRUMP ripping up the JCPOA
he has reverse diplomatic skills, his arrogant arseholeship insulted Iran, who while they might be cunts in regard to human rights and corruption, still have an impressive history and have autonomy that should be respected
100%. It’s the utter stupidity of it all.
You are welcome to ride dream-shotgun in my trip to a quiet future out bush painting and chilling with wolves.
I only found out about what’s happening from your post.
And to be honest, that works just fine for me.
Oh yeah sorry. I think I fell asleep listening to ABC Radio…
No need to apologise :) It just made me realise how much I’ve eased up on my old doom scrolling habit.
Haha I was kicked out of my workspace at my alternate workplace. No where else I can move to so I’m going home!
Listened to a podcast called Scammerland about human trafficking in Myanmar. So terrible.
This sunny weather is too beautiful to stay home. I must beach.
Starting to be like clockwork, mum and aunts share some shit on WhatsApp and I have to tell them to check for AI… One aunt in particular is very susceptible and keeps sharing stuff that should be questionable from the get go. Really I don’t know what to tell her when we get to the point of what comes after VEO 3. When I go visit her in a couple months I think I need to sit down with her and go through some examples. “But it sounds just like David Attenborough!”
Have been out of the gym for 2 months-ish. There was a huge billing issue and I couldn’t be fucked dealing with it.
All sorted now.
Straight there after work. Bring on the happy chemicals.
Edit: Apparently there’s been a huge data breach of Google, Apple, Facebook etc passwords.
You’re kidding me, another data breach?
Would never have thought as a kid I’d some day be excited to wake up early and appraise the damage the new cheapo weed burner has inflicted from the day before.
It’s very relaxing for some reason.
Also the new ICU at st. vincents is very impressive. the ones I’ve been to before are depressing af, but that one has a huge amount of space (and less noise) which is way less confronting for patients. ol’ girl was complaining about being bored and not annoyed which is good.
bored is very good 🙂
I hope she gets better soon
Weed burner? Some people call that a bong.
Punching billies w/ that thing would send you straight to ICU.
I’m sure someone’s tried it though lol.