Was in a very heated verbal argument with my ex that turned violent and then into getting raped.

Unexpectedly came hard as fuck. It was simultaneously utterly repulsive and wildly hot. Had very mixed feelings after that one. Escaped that situation and started living in my car same day.

Turns out cnc is my fav kink now 🙃

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Availability and price with vary depending on what’s available near you but Toyota Camry, Toyota corolla, Chevy Cruze, Chevy cavalier, Honda accord, Mazda 3 are all great cars reasonably within your price range.

Avoid Volkswagen, Audi, bmw… German cars will run a long time if they’re well taken care of but they’re total money pits (I drive a vw gti and love it but even basic maintenance and repairs are expensive)

Avoid subaru for the same reason.

Honda and Toyota engines run a long time, even with poor maintenance but take care to keep up with maintenance and they will run forever.

Old fords are great, new fords not so much. Dodge makes engines built to die. Most modern trucks have catastrophic engine issues.

Avoid anything that came out after 2017, touch screens, capacitive touch, and other ‘luxary’ electronics are prone to fail and become expensive nuisances. AWD, cvt transmissions, and anything that turns the engine off when you come to a stop will come with expensive maintenance and repairs.

Ask about service history, ask if the timing belt or water pump have ever been changed, get a carfax or auto check report (cars with accidents will be cheaper but come with hidden issues), ask how far their average commute is (the longer the commute the better, short drives don’t let the engines warm up properly).

Look at the condition of the tires, look for even gaps where the body panels meet, turn the wheel all the way and check out the suspension and underneath the car for any serious rust (in Canada, everything is going to have rust, but you don’t want to see any cracks or chunky build up), after it’s warmed up listen for any ticks, chirps, knocks, or grinding noises. Look for water stains in the headliner.

Don’t be afraid to look a little above your price range and negotiate down, people want money, but lots of people just want to get the car off their hands.

Get something as close to or under 100,000 miles as you can but most importantly, get something you feel good in.

… not much.

My romantic life is painful and turbulent at best. My job is collapsing because of the tariffs. I owe too much on my car to keep it if I lose my job and it needs a new clutch anyways, which is about $3000 that I don’t have for the cheap one. Family is distant, cold, and unsupportive. My government is doing its best to make life (as a trans person) as painful as possible. Best friend died last year, my only other friend has just kinda fallen off the face of the earth. My hobbies are frustrating and unfulfilling. I have vivid nightmares nightly. My body is deteriorating to the point of near disability. I eat the same shitty $5 chicken sandwhich every day. Insurance won’t cover therapy and suicide seems more and more likely by the day.

My coffee was warm this morning though so, I guess I’ve got that going for me today.

I’m a manager at a small laid back warehouse. It’s not uncommon for coworkers to all go out as a group for drinks from time to time.

A subordinate and I became genuine friends at one of these outings and hung out for a couple of months. They caught feelings, I didn’t reciprocate and backed away from social time with them outside of work. Fast forward a few months and they tried to kill themselves in the parking lot one day after I said I didn’t want to hang out with them anymore because of our work dynamic.

I don’t go to work hangs off the property anymore.

Total eclipse of the sun

I’ve seen a number of partials and lunar eclipses through my life but I drove out to see totality last year.

It was the textbook definition of awesome, it took my breath away in a way I still struggle to describe beyond the words doom and divinity. Took me months to shake it.

15/10 will absolutely travel for the next one if I’m not dead by then.

Then let it be you. Be that someone.

Unfortunately, they’ve made getting a passport prohibitively difficult for trans folks who have already changed their gender markers so even if countries were accepting trans asylum seekers (most aren’t) getting to and across the border has excess difficulties beyond convincing another country that your life and liberty are threatened.

Plus, by the time countries do start accepting asylum seekers it’ll be too late, boarder patrol will be detaining people before they’ll have a chance to cross.

Similarly, my wife mumbling in her sleep punctuating the silence of reading quietly to myself

My mom always hated god damnit so I started saying “Dang-ol’ dingus dangit” and it’s stuck for half my life.

Kid friendly, has a satisfying rhythm, silly enough to difuse some of the frustration, and usually gets a laugh

Metal and punk music, not my style but def my scene

Skateboarding/ bmx/ rollerblades / scooters- have a fucked up knee so I don’t like to anymore but I love the energy the crowd brings

Street racing- car scene is dying and wifey doesn’t let me any more 🙃

Graffiti art- I’m just bad at it

Furries - not my thing but they’re fun folks

Larping / roleplay/ dnd - same

When I worked in kitchens and bars? Regularly

Now, driving a forklift and using a nail gun every day… I’ll wait till I get home

Absolutely! Scent is a big part of attraction for me! And i’m not talking about perfume, or fragrances like shampoo, which I’ve grown not to like because they hide peoples actual scents.

Assuming everyone is hygienic and reasonably clean, most people just smell like people, unexciting, neutral, noticeable but fades into the general environment. but some people… i don’t know what it is but I walk past them or hug them and get a whiff of their scent and I’m instantly coo coo bananas feral ready to tear them apart.

Literally nothing on earth turns me on more than smelling my wife’s back right after she wakes up 🫠

“It only ever ends once, everything before that is just progress” -Jacob from lost lol

Ahh, the ol’ breaker breaker

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I get dizzy during sex

Sex in the woods is great. Finding yourself on a sex offender registry because someone was walking their dog that day… potentially life ruining.

What kid these days has a dumb phone? This effectively bans phones and put the burden of corralling student attention in the hands of the parents.

Parents aren’t about to go out replacing their kids phones with dumb phones. Kids aren’t about to stop carrying their phones (I would tell my kids to keep it on them regardless of what the school says)

This is just a thin excuse for boards to put the blame on teachers and parents for the districts poor performance when really what we need is a lower teacher to student ratio, higher wage for teachers, and schools that are properly funded so these kids can be engaged with instead of policed.

My response wasn’t particularly emotional but sure.

Keeping my empathy doesn’t preclude me from being discerning, swift and decisive in moments of crisis or high risk. I prefer to be kind, that doesn’t mean I don’t know how to be vicious.

When “prepping for war”, it’s important to consider the non-actors that may get caught in the crossfire. “Conservatives” is a wide generalization, many of them are not only capable of empathy, but dare I say decent people, even if they’re under the spell of propaganda.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m a trans woman with a gun and a plan for if/when crisis hits. I’m very aware of the current threats to my life and continued pursuit of happiness. But before that I’m human, and so are they. And as far as I can tell, most of them are as unwilling to participate in this propaganda driven culture war as I am.

So yeah, I’ll keep my empathy.

Don’t let one loud house ruin the neighborhood.